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- Apr 28, 2022
- 21
I have severe anxiety and depression. Like anxiety so severe that I can't get out of bed. So I used to take Xanax like every few days...limited myself to max 2 mg. Now I take it almost every day, max 2 mg, but developing a tolerance towards it. It used to help me for a few hours...give me that euphoric feeling and help me survive throughout the day. I'd take 1 mg during the day, and 1 mg later on. Now I am developing a tolerance and I am scared. I was so anxious I couldn't get out of bed yet, took 1 mg this morning and it worked for like an hour or two and now it's gone. My anxiety is somewhat better but I still feel completely depressed/dead inside. I have to survive working and can't move back in with abusive family again. I'm already on an antidepressant that I've been on for months that doesn't do shit. I tell this to my psychiatrist and she just tells me to wait it out but I can't. I used to be on Abilify/Aripiprazole and that helped a little bit but even on the lowest dose I was ravenously hungry all the time. Again, beg her for alternatives during every visit and she refuses to add another antipsychotic to the mix. The horrible anxiety and depression makes me determined to CTB, along with other things.