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Legalizemybody
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- Mar 19, 2020
- 57
I am feeling a lot of things today. I am tired of being called retarded and different forms of it. I know a lot of people have had trauma and have experienced abuse so my case isn't exceptional. Probably not even important. The doctor said I had permanent brain damage and some retardation. I managed to graduate at a University part-time which took me 8 years. That's something to be proud of. However, I am rejected constantly and lose jobs. I lose people. I want to die or at least be prepared if prison is my only option since I'm only one impulse away from being a criminal. I keep thinking if I lose control with my ADHD and skewed vision of the world, and I have before, then it is the end for me. Last time I was held down in a psych ward and injected with a medicine that impaired my vision so severely I only saw fuzz. The next stop for me is prison and I want to be prepared with the proper tools to end my life. Death or prison. THat's literally all I see.