I was the scapegoated child in a narcissistic, abusive family. I was the only singled out for abuse from parents. Siblings were encouraged to join in taunting me if I cried about the abuse. Siblings can't see me as anything else so I stopped talking to my family many years ago.
I think my life would have been better if I wasn't born into such a shitty family. I don't understand the religious beliefs where they claim we pick our family before we're born. I don't see how anyone would choose a horrible family.
Part of the reason I'm catching the bus is that I don't have anyone to turn to and don't have any family around me for support.
One of my siblings is the CEO of Netball Australia. Don't care if he sees this. Loads of money, huge salary, doesn't care that I have a stalker, I'm stuck living in the middle of nowhere and that I can't afford to move to a safer location. Probably cried into his money during the pandemic lockdowns in Melbourne. Others have gone on to high paying jobs or marry someone who earns a high income. If I were to reach out and ask them for help, I'd have to accept being treated like shit again; I'd have to accept my role as being treated like I'm worth nothing. I can't go there again.
I live in a horrible little country town because it's all I can afford. Stalker of 9 years whose stepfather is a bail justice who tells his stepson how to work with the system and get away with all kinds of shit. Stalker has threatened me with a chainsaw, tried to run me over, damaged 3 of my cars, fenced off my driveway and used an excavator to dig up dirt, followed me to buildings and waited outside, etc. Won't accept that I'll never want a relationship with him. If I were to ask family for help, I'd still be in danger because of their shit.
My siblings can go fuck themselves.