Discussion Would your 15 year old self tell you to CTB?

[HadItAll]

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[FuneralCry]

I was very suicidal when I was 15, in fact I've never wanted to exist here at all. So of course I was telling myself that suicide would solve everything way back then. It's unfortunate how I'm still here and I hate how I've managed to exist for 22 years.

 

[Octavia]

My 15 year old version would realise a lot of things if they have a meeting with me. I was quite an oblivious imbecile at that time.

 

[Source Energy]

Yes. And I would tell her the same.

My first attempt was at 13.

 

[missingpeace]

Yes, life was not worth it. It was shit back then and she was destined for even worse shit later on in life. God is an arsehole.

 

[Ligottian]

I still had foolish hope for the future then.

 

[AnonymousRobin]

i was suicidal at 13 if anything my 15 year old self would have less preservation and be able to go ahead with it

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Yes !!!
But my older self would tell my 15 year old self to CTB as soon as I can.

 

[Source Energy]

Yes !!!
But my older self would tell my 15 year old self to CTB as soon as I can.

this. looking back - what a waste...I wish it was possible to click "delete" over all this loneliness and painful experiences. I wish my overdose at 13 had worked. I'm 43 now. Can't say I didn't give life a chance.

 

[APocketfulOfStones]

Yes. I was really depressed then as well. I'm sad now, looking back, that I wasn't able to create a better future for my 15-year-old self.

 

[Scacie]

Yes. Was suicidal since 13, so I'd tell her to do it and lessen her suffering :'). Though with the benefit of hindsight, I'd tell her to transition ASAP, consequences be dammed, as everything is about to get so much worse. Though I also completely understand 15yr old mes decision to not to, so I'd support her to CTB
Edit: oops read the qn wrong

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

My 15 year old self would be shocked and terrified at what I became

 

[Seven Threads]

No. My 15 year old self would not tell me to ctb. If anything, there are things I understand now that I wish I'd be able to tell him. About how he isn't a fuckup, a failure, or a waste of space. How many of the things he struggles with were never really his fault. How the world wasn't built with someone like him in mind, and that's okay.

There's a lot of things 15 year old me really needed to hear at that time. But even then, he wouldn't tell me to ctb. That just isn't who he was.

 

[Fwompje]

My 15-year-old would definitely, I would've been considering suicide for at least a year by then. Knowing that it would get worse and worse would make you ger me tell me that it's okay to go.

I think another interesting question would be whether you would tell your 15-year-old self to kill themselves. Like a prevention of current day.