Discussion Would you tell your 15 year old self to CTB?

[leavingsoon99]

Yes. I wish I would have. That's what's helping me overcome my SI now. I'm older and alone. There's no version of the future that is pleasant. Back then, I could blame hope and naivete. Now, I have no excuses. I know better.

 

[funeralcat]

Yes. It will not get better. You still don't have friends, and painful situations are coming, which will cause trauma.

 

[OceanBlue]

Yes. I would have to tell that kid that things will not get better, it's quite sad thinking of myself at that age having hope for the future.

I only realized how early it started after reading my old notes. I now understand why nothing felt right back then, but this additional time I spent alive caused a lot suffering and it would have been in my best interest to avoid it.

It would be better to go back in time even further and tell my mother to get an abortion. We don't even understand this world, we see a lot of suffering around us and we still mindlessly gamble with another's existence - creating people should be avoided at all costs.

 

[CentreMid]

I was already suicidal at 15 (started feeling like this at 13), I wouldn't need to tell young Centre anything

 

[yourrealname]

hell yea. it just gets worse. no point in sticking around