Would you rather die than do 30+ years to life in prison and you're already 40+ years old?

[ChristopherWalken]

I'm falling heavily on the side of killing myself would be preferable to prison but I'm having some doubts. My experience with jail (never been in my life until these past couple months), has been horrible. I'm pretty healthy and don't have any mental issues, but I'm 48 and I've been told the possibilities of getting out early are pretty slim.

 

[cryptic_cynic]

Of course I'd rather die. Life is bad enough as it is without being locked in a cage.

 

[WilliamKline]

Will the replies of other members here influence your decision? Might sound a bit soft but I think you know what your own true answer is to your question, you might just be looking for affirmation.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

Will the replies of other members here influence your decision? Might sound a bit soft but I think you know what your own true answer is to your question, you might just be looking for affirmation.

I thought I knew the answer but as I said I'm starting to have doubts. I was hoping for some insight, other aspects to think about, and possibly comments from anybody with a similar situation or knowledge of one. The biggest gray area for me is not having any idea of what life is like on the inside, especially when doing many years. I know most won't have the answer to that but it's a huge decision and I need to talk about it.

 

[Soul]

@ChristopherWalken my dear, given the nature of the forum, I think you know what people here would choose, since it's what we're choosing without even bringing jail into it.

You want some other option, don't you. What about appealing the sentence? Has that been completely ruled out?

 

[okaoki]

I'm younger than you , i'm sorry i can't give any advice , but i do feel you . i'm in a situation i need to choose
from two options , im still not sure about it , but feeling too numb about it.
sorry for my english.

 

[Rachel74]

It would all depend what Jail life would be like. If I was isolated and left alone I'd be fine but knowing me I'd end up being someone's wife. If I couldn't see my dogs for years I'd end it, they are the reason i am still here.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

@ChristopherWalken my dear, given the nature of the forum, I think you know what people here would choose, since it's what we're choosing without even bringing jail into it.

You want some other option, don't you. What about appealing the sentence? Has that been completely ruled out?

It's in the very early stages I haven't even entered a plea yet. But my lawyers are telling me it's pretty hopeless and I'm headed for jail. Appeal might come later, but they said there's little chance of success on that either. In short, I'm f@*ked.

 

[Nunyabinniss]

I'm barely 30 years old and I would definitely rather die than spend what maybe the rest of my life in prison that's just my opinion I do not think that's a good life I barely think life on the outside is worth living so ha ha Ha ahhhhhh no id rather die.

 

[Rachel74]

I'm falling heavily on the side of killing myself would be preferable to prison but I'm having some doubts. My experience with jail (never been in my life until these past couple months), has been horrible. I'm pretty healthy and don't have any mental issues, but I'm 48 and I've been told the possibilities of getting out early are pretty slim.

So you have no illnesses or mental health problems but you see suicide as a way out of a long jail sentence?
It would determine why you was in there. I'd welcome any rapist or peado to kill them selves but then them living the rest of their life knowing what they did is the best torture.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

I'm younger than you , i'm sorry i can't give any advice , but i do feel you . i'm in a situation i need to choose
from two options , im still not sure about it , but feeling too numb about it.
sorry for my english.

What are your 2 options? If you don't mind me asking?

 

[Rachel74]

So you have no illnesses or mental health problems but you see suicide as a way out of a long jail sentence?
It would determine why you was in there. I'd welcome any rapist or peado to kill them selves but then them living the rest of their life knowing what they did is the best torture.

Im not saying you did anything like that so apologies if you do. Me and my big mouth.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

So you have no illnesses or mental health problems but you see suicide as a way out of a long jail sentence?
It would determine why you was in there. I'd welcome any rapist or peado to kill them selves but then them living the rest of their life knowing what they did is the best torture.

Yes actually it's truly that bad in there. At least for me it is. I need stuff to do, purpose, freedom, and that's not even mentioning the bad conditions and getting beaten by other prisoners. When I say I have no mental illness I mean I don't have a torturous mental illness that makes normal life unbearable. I do have depression and struggled with suicidal tendency but I had it beat.

 

[Mr2005]

It's a tricky one. I either lie or have your death on my conscience

 

[Rachel74]

Yes actually it's truly that bad in there. At least for me it is. I need stuff to do, purpose, freedom, and that's not even mentioning the bad conditions and getting beaten by other prisoners. When I say I have no mental illness I mean I don't have a torturous mental illness that makes normal life unbearable. I do have depression and struggled with suicidal tendency but I had it beat.

That's exactly how I would feel. Hopefully my mental health condition would keep me in isolation but I haven't a clue. You need your lawyer to know this before you are sentenced. It might keep you out if there is a risk you'll committ suicide.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

This is something I don't think people on here can truly comment on, considering the majority of the users here are here for CTB reasons. So for many the answer would be clear and easy.
Can I ask what you did to put you in this situation, I can imagine this is not an easy choice for you, but only you can decide your path at the end of the day.

Personally the only way I would end up in prison is if I was happy with life but homeless, to me, prison always seemed better then living on the streets but I could just be naive.

 

[Mr2005]

That's exactly how I would feel. Hopefully my mental health condition would keep me in isolation but I haven't a clue. You need your lawyer to know this before you are sentenced. It might keep you out if there is a risk you'll committ suicide.

Is your mental health condition of a sexual nature?

 

[Rachel74]

Is your mental health condition of a sexual nature?

No it's not.

 

[Soul]

It's in the very early stages I haven't even entered a plea yet. But my lawyers are telling me it's pretty hopeless and I'm headed for jail. Appeal might come later, but they said there's little chance of success on that either. In short, I'm f@*ked.

I'm sorry that's the situation. And do I understand right that you're going to be taken into custody soon, and won't be able to get out on bail - that's why you need to make your decision very soon?
What would happen if, as @Rachel74 suggests, your lawyer told the court that you're a suicide risk if you're put in custody? Would that gain you any time?

 

[Blackjack]

30 years in prison? For what? Some murderers don't even get that much time. No way would I sign up for that. Get out (peaceful exit) while you can.

 

[Hennessy]

It depends on your country's prison system. Which country do you live in?

And also if you get your own cell or if you have to share it with other prisoners?

I have never been a prisoner myself, but I guess the worst part about serving a prison sentence is that you have to spend time with other prisoners.

Living confined in a small cell somehow seems peacefull to me (if I don't have to share it).

 

[a_strange_day]

yes without any hesitation, even if I have to do my time in Norway

 

[gingerplum]

I could tolerate a year or two. I'm sure it would be excruciating, and I have no doubt it would feel interminable. But I'm your age, and life gets shorter very fast, so no. No way, especially for a decade or more. I can't see how anyone could possibly blame you for choosing an end on your own terms vs probably dying in prison as an old man.

The quality of my life is marginal as it is, so for me (as likely the rest of the forum here) it's hardly a difficult choice.

 

[LastFlowers]

Of course I'd rather die. Life is bad enough as it is without being locked in a cage.

Exactly.
For me my cage is my ugly face and body so I'm out of here.
Definitely wouldn't want to be stuck in jail on top of it. Most people want to stay out of the psych ward, which many compare to prison. Imagine being in an actual prison for decades.
That's definitely a "yes, I would rather die" from me OP.

What was the crime?

 

[ProlongedSentence]

I'm falling heavily on the side of killing myself would be preferable to prison but I'm having some doubts. My experience with jail (never been in my life until these past couple months), has been horrible. I'm pretty healthy and don't have any mental issues, but I'm 48 and I've been told the possibilities of getting out early are pretty slim.

30 + Years? Did you say what the charges are?
And 47?
Is that your personal pic for your Avatar?
You look 27 if so.
Sorry.
I shoulda added.
I wanna die now.
I am nearing half a century and my whole "life" has been a torturous existence. I am here in desperation now.

 

[H2H2]

The only thing I can think of is death row inmates : they are usually relieved when they have their sentences conmuted to life in prison. Maybe its because they are already in prison. There are a couple of documentaries on Youtube about death row and life in prison that you may want to watch. People having made a single very bad decision one point in their lives and having ( and how ) to deal with the consequences of having to spend the rest of ther lives in prison is a very common theme of those documentaries. I dont know if thats your case but maybe you can find something in them that you can relate to ?

I wouldnt give too much weight to our opinions tbh. Most of us are not a good measure of an average well functioning human being imo. If you are not completely sure and you dont mind hanging as your method of choice, maybe you could consider staying alive until you know for a fact what to expect and if you are resilient enough. If it doesnt work out for you or you cant handle it, there is always the option of hanging yourself in prison. I wouldnt because there is no way in life I would bet in my current situation against hanging and being found too early but just in case you havent considered that option as another possible one.

 

[Soul]

I reckon another question is what I'd do when I was freed at age 77 or whatever. Kill myself, probably.

 

[k75]

I'm pretty sure I'd kill myself. I'm terrified of jail and prison. I've never ever been arrested for anything, but I've always been scared of it. And especially at this point in my life (I'm about to turn 41), looking at a sentence like that, no way.

 

[JimFord99]

Kill myself, too. Not because of prison, it is because or hell which comes after prison.

 

[Empty Smile]

I'll make sure I go out in a fucking hail of gunfire.