On some level, yes, because that would enable me to reach my goals of aiding others. At the same time, I feel it would have to make fundamental changes to me as a person. Even on my decent, 'baseline cognition' days, I still want to die, or I want to want to die.
I'm not sure if I want to give up suicidality and its potential for nothingness, for absolving all responsibilities of this flesh prison. This is dependent on perspective, but nothing matters in the long run; humans aren't any more important than grass in the grand scheme of things.
Honesty is the best policy, but maybe I'm a hypocrite because I still live with at least one happy lie.