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- Aug 18, 2020
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I have made different experiences. I have told it 4 friends (maybe more?). Two of them see absolutely no problem in it. I talk with them a lot about my suicidality. Another friend of mine does not want to know anything about the forum. He had depression and suciidality in the past and says it would make him more depressed. This absolutely does not count for myself especially when I visit this forum in an healthy amount of time and follow some rules.
Another person judged me a lot for it. She is not such a close friend of mine I was a little surprised she seems to be quite pro-life.
I also opened up to professionals about it. I think I have told it to 3 of them. Their reaction was quite heterogeneous. I told it to a therapist in clinic when I was acute suicidal. I told him how obsessed I am about suicide. He wanted that I stay away from the internet but I think he recognized that I am still very much obsessed about suicide even without the internet.
I told it to my current therapist (psychologist). I told it to him twice. I think he forgot the first time after a while. Lol. When I said it to him the first time he was hesistant on it. He did not know why I visit a suicide forum I was not that transparent about my suicidality. The second time some months ago he was more understanding. I emphasized I am currently not planning to commit suicide. But that this forum is like a valve or coping mechanism for me. That I am just chronically suicidal and feel so lonely without this forum. He is now okay with the fact that I visit a suicide forum. And in contrast to my dad he is more compassionate. But he does not know the exact name of the forum.
My psychiatrist was not that understanding. She is the best psychiatrist I ever had. But the other ones were just abysmal. I don't reallly have a close connection to her. I assume she has forgot it again already. I have the feeling she forgets a lot what I am telling to her.
However I am really glad that my current therapis/psychologist supports me. He trusts me that I am not currently planning to kill myself. I think transparency is good for the connection to him.
Another person judged me a lot for it. She is not such a close friend of mine I was a little surprised she seems to be quite pro-life.
I also opened up to professionals about it. I think I have told it to 3 of them. Their reaction was quite heterogeneous. I told it to a therapist in clinic when I was acute suicidal. I told him how obsessed I am about suicide. He wanted that I stay away from the internet but I think he recognized that I am still very much obsessed about suicide even without the internet.
I told it to my current therapist (psychologist). I told it to him twice. I think he forgot the first time after a while. Lol. When I said it to him the first time he was hesistant on it. He did not know why I visit a suicide forum I was not that transparent about my suicidality. The second time some months ago he was more understanding. I emphasized I am currently not planning to commit suicide. But that this forum is like a valve or coping mechanism for me. That I am just chronically suicidal and feel so lonely without this forum. He is now okay with the fact that I visit a suicide forum. And in contrast to my dad he is more compassionate. But he does not know the exact name of the forum.
My psychiatrist was not that understanding. She is the best psychiatrist I ever had. But the other ones were just abysmal. I don't reallly have a close connection to her. I assume she has forgot it again already. I have the feeling she forgets a lot what I am telling to her.
However I am really glad that my current therapis/psychologist supports me. He trusts me that I am not currently planning to kill myself. I think transparency is good for the connection to him.
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