
bugs_for_brains
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- Mar 4, 2024
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I always encourage him not to start using stuff he doesnt already abuse (i.e. alcohol) but lately he keeps mentioning wanting to try various drugs and today is like the 4th or 5th time hes said hes gonna do diphenhydramine bc he cant get anything else. ik some trusted people in america who sell online so im wondering if I should just give him their @. i dont rlly wanna be responsible for him taking anything especially since hes already prone to hallucinating and delusions while sober but tbh I cant think of anything worse than a literal deliriant especially as a first hallucinogen.
idk i feel bad either way bc if I tell him where to buy "better" drugs they still have a lot of potential to mess him up but if I dont and he starts abusing dph then im also kinda responsible bc I didnt do enough to deter him (obv I tell him info about what it does to u, I even told him when I took it and have a complete 5+ hour memory loss and wrecked my house and threw up all over the place as well as the fact thats not even an uncommon experience and he still wants to try it so idk). Im just a little worried bc knowing him I feel like dph is the worst thing he could use and I dont want him to hurt himself or smth. I live in the UK too so I cant just help him out irl and I doubt I'd be able to call him if he took it since he sometimes gets super paranoid abt online interaction even sober when hes not doing good
I will most likely just wait a bit first bc I have a slight hunch hes actively trying to get me to worry and help him source stuff anyway bc he knows I know how but we'll see how far he takes it :/
I forgot to mention he specifically wants to hallucinate hence why i cant just tell him to smoke weed or smth. I dont think any hallucinogen would be okay for him tho im pretty sure they all are bad for ppl with his symptoms
idk i feel bad either way bc if I tell him where to buy "better" drugs they still have a lot of potential to mess him up but if I dont and he starts abusing dph then im also kinda responsible bc I didnt do enough to deter him (obv I tell him info about what it does to u, I even told him when I took it and have a complete 5+ hour memory loss and wrecked my house and threw up all over the place as well as the fact thats not even an uncommon experience and he still wants to try it so idk). Im just a little worried bc knowing him I feel like dph is the worst thing he could use and I dont want him to hurt himself or smth. I live in the UK too so I cant just help him out irl and I doubt I'd be able to call him if he took it since he sometimes gets super paranoid abt online interaction even sober when hes not doing good
I will most likely just wait a bit first bc I have a slight hunch hes actively trying to get me to worry and help him source stuff anyway bc he knows I know how but we'll see how far he takes it :/
I always encourage him not to start using stuff he doesnt already abuse (i.e. alcohol) but lately he keeps mentioning wanting to try various drugs and today is like the 4th or 5th time hes said hes gonna do diphenhydramine bc he cant get anything else. ik some trusted people in america who sell online so im wondering if I should just give him their @. i dont rlly wanna be responsible for him taking anything especially since hes already prone to hallucinating and delusions while sober but tbh I cant think of anything worse than a literal deliriant especially as a first hallucinogen.
idk i feel bad either way bc if I tell him where to buy "better" drugs they still have a lot of potential to mess him up but if I dont and he starts abusing dph then im also kinda responsible bc I didnt do enough to deter him (obv I tell him info about what it does to u, I even told him when I took it and have a complete 5+ hour memory loss and wrecked my house and threw up all over the place as well as the fact thats not even an uncommon experience and he still wants to try it so idk). Im just a little worried bc knowing him I feel like dph is the worst thing he could use and I dont want him to hurt himself or smth. I live in the UK too so I cant just help him out irl and I doubt I'd be able to call him if he took it since he sometimes gets super paranoid abt online interaction even sober when hes not doing good
I will most likely just wait a bit first bc I have a slight hunch hes actively trying to get me to worry and help him source stuff anyway bc he knows I know how but we'll see how far he takes it :/
I forgot to mention he specifically wants to hallucinate hence why i cant just tell him to smoke weed or smth. I dont think any hallucinogen would be okay for him tho im pretty sure they all are bad for ppl with his symptoms
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