man, I feel you. I have never held down a job for even a full year, and it's getting harder and harder to get employee the more jobs I piss through. I always either hit a wall where my panic of going to/being atwork outweighs the survival drive and i don't show up or (more commonly) walk out, get so depressed or sick with pain and nausea that I cant get out of bed, or I get myself fired for whatever reason. My guess is that the employer realizes how neurotic I am and considers me a burden/liability and so finds a reason to get rid of me... or in the case of my last job, just doesn't even try to give me any reason or heads up. but the most common thing has been walking off the job and never showing up again
I can never explain to anyone why this happens, why it's so difficult to hold down a job. I've been ridiculed and shamed by people in my life for it. In all honesty I hate it, I'd love to be a good, complacent, loyal employee that doesn't understand that I'm just a number ready to be tossed at the first sniff of more trouble than I'm worth. but with mental and chronic illness, I'm not worth shit. plus I can never force myself to fake enthusiasm or loyalty... never know how to answer anyone who's like "how do you like the job so far?" I mean... I'm scraping and pulling slabs of fucking wax out of machines for 8 hours a day, Greg, so I don't know. It's a whole lot of fun I guess.
I've been at my new job two weeks and I already had my first major meltdown at work... and then another after that. I'm so fucked, and I have no advice to give you, because I don't know what to do myself
anyway good luck at the interview. don't forget to... smile?