Venting wondering if i should ctb

[synthcadia]

so um. updates in my life:
- my brother got kicked out of the house.
- a week later, my mom's cancer comes back in 4 places.
- friend stayed with me and then my parents kept bitching to me when they didn't like stuff that she did, they sided with her abusive parents, and then they pretty much made her feel like she had to leave while telling me that i needed better friends and wondering where they went wrong.
- stress from classes.

so, not only am i carrying myself, but also my mom emotionally.

it's too much LOL. i'm scared to go home, and now i'm think that i live in an emotionally abusive household.

this week… i'm physically feeling the stress. face is breaking out and this week i've been so fucking exhausted i almost passed out when i was walking to and from my car today.

i dont know if i can hold up myself and my mom. and my mom told me, almost verbatim, that my mom's health and relationship is more important than my friends.

I'm so tired. (((((((^:

 

[undecided]

You sound like you're very young. I'm guessing 15 - 17? This stage in life sucks. But you WILL get through it! Your hormones are all over the place, and your mom is ill and she's saying stuff she probably wouldn't say if she wasn't ill.
You WILL get through this. Life sucks sometimes

 

[alltoomuch2]

You sound like you're very young. I'm guessing 15 - 17? This stage in life sucks. But you WILL get through it! Your hormones are all over the place, and your mom is ill and she's saying stuff she probably wouldn't say if she wasn't ill.
You WILL get through this. Life sucks sometimes

Can people drive at age 15-17?

 

[AuroraB]

Can people drive at age 15-17?

i got my license when i was 16 and drove myself to high school back in the late 1970s.

 

[alltoomuch2]

so um. updates in my life:
- my brother got kicked out of the house.
- a week later, my mom's cancer comes back in 4 places.
- friend stayed with me and then my parents kept bitching to me when they didn't like stuff that she did, they sided with her abusive parents, and then they pretty much made her feel like she had to leave while telling me that i needed better friends and wondering where they went wrong.
- stress from classes.

so, not only am i carrying myself, but also my mom emotionally.

it's too much LOL. i'm scared to go home, and now i'm think that i live in an emotionally abusive household.

this week… i'm physically feeling the stress. face is breaking out and this week i've been so fucking exhausted i almost passed out when i was walking to and from my car today.

i dont know if i can hold up myself and my mom. and my mom told me, almost verbatim, that my mom's health and relationship is more important than my friends.

I'm so tired. ((((

i got my license when i was 16 and drove myself to high school back in the late 1970s.

I thought you didn't sound like a minor. I'm so very sorry that is happening to you and can empathise.its so hard when family abuse your loyalty to cross your boundaries and attack what's important to you. Cancer or not, that doesn't reduce their obligation to respect your boundaries.

 

[cryone]

hey, its okay to feel the way you do. im sorry for what you're going through, especially with a broken family. but to answer the question in your title, if you're stuck on considering CTB, don't do it.