Will you write a suicide note?

[nomoredolor]

Have written a suicide note for my family detailing the different people I need them to tell (mostly online people), my wishes for disposal of remains, and the usual emotional stuff.

Have written shorter suicide notes for three of my friends which I intend to email to them on a delay. For some of my other friends, who I intend to send money to before I die, I have written a short note which will send in WhatsApp just to explain that this was not a mistake.

Finally, if I kill myself in a hotel room then I will probably leave a note for staff, paramedics, police, and the coroner.

If you feel comfortable sharing. What would your note to the staff, paramedics, police and the coroner say?

 

[Meowsies]

I have had them ready for about a year. Just wiating to see if it's even possible for my life to get better before I actually commit.

 

[sharpiemarker]

No i won't. I think there is nothing that I could say that would make anyone feel better or understand anything that happened. It could only hurt them.

 

[GUZMA]

I won't because imagine how utterly embarrassing it would be to write that out then not doing it, and one day someone finds it, imagine the look they would give you and the conversation you would have, not risking going to the ward again haha.

 

[Unspoken7612]

If you feel comfortable sharing. What would your note to the staff, paramedics, police and the coroner say?

Haven't written it, and haven't thought about it for about a month now, but probably something like:

"My name is [name], my next of kin is [name] and can be contacted at [address], [phone number], or [email address]. I have deliberately attempted suicide using sodium nitrite. The antidote is methylene blue. I would rather not be treated but understand that you have legal and professional obligations.

Sorry for putting you through this.

This wasn't an impulsive decision, but a cold, calculated one that was years in the making.

I believe I have a right to die and would like that right to be respected. I have consistently lied to friends, family, and especially medical professionals to stop them from sectioning me. My inability to talk freely about my suicidality has alienated me from those around me. I think the best way to prevent similar deaths would be legalisation of assisted suicide for anyone who wants it. Impulsive suicide is a public health issue, but determined suicide is a personal autonomy issue and conflating the two has made it harder for me to seek support."

 

[nomoredolor]

Haven't written it, and haven't thought about it for about a month now, but probably something like:

"My name is [name], my next of kin is [name] and can be contacted at [address], [phone number], or [email address]. I have deliberately attempted suicide using sodium nitrite. The antidote is methylene blue. I would rather not be treated but understand that you have legal and professional obligations.

Sorry for putting you through this.

This wasn't an impulsive decision, but a cold, calculated one that was years in the making.

I believe I have a right to die and would like that right to be respected. I have consistently lied to friends, family, and especially medical professionals to stop them from sectioning me. My inability to talk freely about my suicidality has alienated me from those around me. I think the best way to prevent similar deaths would be legalisation of assisted suicide for anyone who wants it. Impulsive suicide is a public health issue, but determined suicide is a personal autonomy issue and conflating the two has made it harder for me to seek support."

Appreciate you for taking the time to give such a detailed response

 

[ilikehamsters]

No,i did before my first attempt (where my SI instincts kicked in) it was held over me for years. Every minor step on the way to getting better, I got reminded "How do you think that note made me feel?" or something to that effect. It didn't seem to help them understand my pain at the time and if i had succeeded i don't think it would have brought them any comfort.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I don't think so. I'd rather not leave anything behind.

 

[heyhoherewego]

I won't leave a note. I tried thinking about how I can clearly explain why I want to die, but it's always lacking, it can never convey the sheer trauma, they can't understand without feeling it. The only thing I will do is writing a post here a few minutes before I do it, just announcing it and saying goodbye, and also write the only person I consider a real friend something like "Goodbye." I think thats enough, they know anyway how depressed I am but there's nothing anyone can do to change that, it's the entire way this reality works that makes me suicidal. Maybe should call it existencial depression. The fucking universe itself is my constant mental enemy.

the way i see it, the only purpose these pre-death preparations serve is to increase your chance of a peaceful death. it makes it easier to take the final step if you think you have covered all bases, whether they actually pan out or not means nothing. you will be dead, you wont care, you wont know. when i attempted and failed due to SI i had written like a bagillion notes (mostly practical, detailing where i put which key, where to find what, contingencies in case something went wrong etc) and had scheduled messages and all. but when i was staring death in its eyes, i wasnt thinking about ANY of that. truly it all becomes so insignificant. so the next time i attempt i wont bother with all that, it didnt serve the one purpose it had - making it easier.

 

[xxCuteSprinklesxx]

I may write a note with a few sentences (2-3 sentences) if there is time.

 

[pariah80]

I would if I had children who were grown enough to understand. Otherwise, I don't see the point. My "loved ones" will cry, make everything about themselves, and move on.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Always said yes but finally no. Just text my mom I left and it's fine

 

[LunarLight]

Honestly, I'd like to, but I'm not sure I'll be able to. So much to say, and at the same time so little. But I'd like to have a few kind words for my partner at least.