Discussion Will you succumb to suicide, accidental death or natural causes?

[Lost Magic]

I know most of us on here are suicidal but how many of you think you will actually go through with it or just ruminate over catching the bus? I mean I know of people (close family members) who wanted to die at points in their lives and tried to kill themselves (in violent ways) but still managed to live to fairly old age. Thoughts?

 

[Huntfish34]

I'd Prefer to have an accidental or natural death. I suppose it just depends on how shitt my life becomes or if something just triggers me out of impulse. Time will tell I reckon -

 

[Tortured_empath]

I'm not sure. I walk a line. I'd prefer if people here lived.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not know what will happen. All I want is to pass away peacefully at a time of my own choosing, but I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult, we do not live in a society that respects our right to die. Maybe eventually I will get desperate enough to finally exit when the time is right for me. I do not want to live until an old age, that sounds so horrible, suffering for many more decades.

 

[jimmy7754]

I just want it to end.. but fear of being worse off for another decade is what stops me.

 

[Lost Magic]

I do not know what will happen. All I want is to pass away peacefully at a time of my own choosing, but I am trapped in this world as suicide is so difficult, we do not live in a society that respects our right to die. Maybe eventually I will get desperate enough to finally exit when the time is right for me. I do not want to live until an old age, that sounds so horrible, suffering for many more decades.

The old age part frightens me as well tbh. I mean I have already lived a considerably long time and lost a lot already. I couldn't image the hell of living another 40 years or so. Fuck that!

 

[arnab]

I think living and risking dying by a car crash or another slow death would suck hard compared to just taking N - if N really is peaceful and our conciseness isn't aware during the death part of N.

I think natural death in sleep of old age is comparable to N. But not heart attack or stroke . I think that hurts. Bad.

I pray to God that N is peaceful
We deserve dignity

 

[Lost Magic]

I think living and risking dying by a car crash or another slow death would suck hard compared to just taking N - if N really is peaceful and our conciseness isn't aware during the death part of N.

I think natural death in sleep of old age is comparable to N. But not heart attack or stroke . I think that hurts. Bad.

I pray to God that N is peaceful
We deserve dignity

That's all I want too, Arnab, mate. I just want to drink the N (get over the taste somehow and SI) go to sleep and forget this reality.

 

[arnab]

That's all I want too, Arnab, mate. I just want to drink the N (get over the taste somehow and SI) go to sleep and forget this reality.

Our brain can't conceptualise eternal death. Remember that brother. Darkness will engulf us .

 

[Hollowman]

You forgot being murdered

 

[arnab]

You forgot being murdered

Yeah, that can be even worse than those I mentioned. Imagine being tortured to death.

I watched this video of a girl about 15 years old held up by 10 Mexican guys cutting her limbs off one by one until they finally slith her throat.
God I can't stop hearing that scream

And then I see a fucking parent on the street and I swear I want to strangle them man.

I quote someone on here Ss that was an antinatlist and he said "2 negative points weigh more than 1 positive " and that's true about life

 

[Nanako]

Imagine dying slowly and painfully in a horrific accident due to circumstances outside your control.

 

[Al Cappella]

I honestly don't know. Accidental croaking seems unlikely as I really don't do very much putting myself in harm's way. At the moment suicide seems the higher probability. Then again, I've already had a mini-stroke & minor heart attack, and all the men die young in my family (father 59, grandfather 69) so who knows…

 

[Someone123]

I thnk ctb will be the way now, I was too late in figuring out how to get ,y life to work- there was so much much abuse for so long and I didn't figure out the right steps that were needed until too late. Almost 3% of American men ctb sooner or later- I'll most likely be in that group.

 

[ilivebecuzicantdie]

I don't really know. I want to be the one who chooses when I die but also commiting suicide is hard so may end up dying an accidental or natural death

 

[Sea Turtle]

I feel like it's inevitable that I will die by my own hand. Even if I somehow survived and was "happy" or at least content, I don't foresee a future in which I enjoy being old, with all the limitations and health issues.

 

[arnab]

Imagine dying slowly and painfully in a horrific accident due to circumstances outside your control.

Yeah, like bleeding out in a car crash wouldn't be fun

 

[tatumtots]

I do a lot of things to "accidentally" get killed. The drug supply around me is heavily tainted with fentanyl and sometimes I wish I'd get the bad batch. This doesn't seem to be happening anytime soon unless I get actual heroin so I ordered SN instead. Dying in a car crash would be easier for my family to deal with I think but it sounds so painful, I want to ctb on my own terms and go peacefully.

 

[Symbiote]

I've done enough damage to my body that I'll probably die young of natural causes.

 

[Murasa]

At this point I think I'll die from an accident or my body will say "lol that's it", not because I want to, I've just racked up enough failed attempts. so I can say I suck even to kill myself.

 

[genericuser]

I want to die by my own hands. I'd have complete control and it'd hopefully be comfortable and painless.

 

[tieiwi]

I know that I'll commit suicide sooner or later. I cant see myself living to 30, definitely not my 50s either. Or I'll just get so mentally tired that I'll stop caring about my well being and die from that.

 

[tfnb]

When I was younger I had a few failed attempts. After having my first child that luxury was taken away as I became responsible for trying to be valuable to them. Now I just periodically fantasize about it

 

[Angel of Spades]

If I can get my hands on something, I'd definitely CTB. I don't enjoy the idea of an accidental death, because I feel like I would panic and it wouldn't be something that I get to control. The whole point of CTB-ing for me is that I'd like to have some control over how I leave this world, since I didn't get any say over being put into it.

Accidental death would mean that everything would happen all at once and I wouldn't really have the chance to have any say over it: I wouldn't be able to tell the people I love that I love them, I wouldn't be able to leave my things exactly where I want them, etc. I guess natural death falls under the same category, but I'd be okay with it because natural causes tend to be a little slower than accidental causes, and so I'd still have some time to plan and re-organize.

But, if I make it past college graduation, then I'd probably stop seriously considering CTB-ing; it really depends how the rest of my life plays out.

 

[EternalDaydreaming]

Either suicide or drinking myself to death

 

[brokeandbroken]

Right now it's probably 90% CTB 10% evenly split between the other two. I don't see much chance my life improves in any reasonable or manageable way that makes me want to keep soldiering on.

 

[charlotte_]

I hope I could die by my own hands, when I have the means to do it. Then, the control will be under my hands and the pain will be brief. Any kinds of external deaths are pure chance on whether you would get a peaceful death or a horrible gruesome one, but more often than not it would be gruesome. I don't want that to happen, but as long as I'm still a coward fearful of pain then I can't really ask for anything. Certainly would not want to grow old and suffer with diseases, so not gonna stay there until natural cause.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

ctb 100%

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish for a natural death while sleeping every evening, but this is very unlikely to happen. Unless my life changes positive again, it will be CTB when I reached the final point of no return and all hopes gone.