Will you be here next year?

[ddn.ctb]

Probably not
I have my tool kit ready to go, all I need is that sudden urge to do it, OR a partner to do it with

 

[Liminal1]

Hard to say honestly. I dont want to be, but SI is a tricky thing to overcome, and I haven't figured out how to do that yet. Also haven't quite settled on a method yet

 

[Terranova]

probably, i think i want to try hypothermia because winter is coming in but now i feel like its too long a wait, also i thought i wanted, or had to, wait 3 - 5 years before i actually ctb'd, but i figure i'd go for an attempt and if i survive then maybe i'll stick for the 3 - 5, idk tho, idk if i'm even capable of actually going through with it, its not even like i want to die, but i am extremely tired, also 3 - 5 years bcs i'm on hrt and tho i dont think it will make a dif i atleast wanted to see what it would look like

 

[FuneralCry]

Unfortunately, it's very likely I will be but of course one cannot predict the future, death could come for us at any moment. It's so horrible how we cannot easily just choose to free ourselves from this existence in peace despite the fact that I see it as always preferable to not exist. Only the thought of permanently ceasing to exist and being unable to suffer for all eternity comforts me.

 

[Ksmиda]

Hopefully, because I'm only gonna CTB if things go badly (and it's likely they will soon).

 

[feuerflieger]

i hope not but i don't think my friends are seriously capable of cbt yet and i don't want to do it alone. i also haven't decided on a method yet since my body is good at surviving (i hate it) and i really want to be sure it'll work this time. so i guess i will still be here next year.

 

[february in alaska]

Yes but just barely :') February if all goes well, fingers crossed

 

[LonelyPlanetBoy]

I think so but I can't say for sure sometimes. I have my things together but I was feeling well for a long time. Just now lately my mood was dropping. I still hope I get better and can make it

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Sure maybe but I won't stick around long enough to see 25 or 2025.

 

[trustlovenoone1881]

Don't want to be here any longer than Jan. 6th; thinking I may take a solo trip somewhere to do it. Don't want to mess up the vibes in my family's new home.

Truthfully, I don't want to get to my 25th birthday, but I feel the need to make amends with some ppl before I go, and the holidays is the only time I'll see everyone.

 

[todeswunsch]

I don't want to. But I believe I'll end up still being here.
I'm too lazy/coward...
Just keep going by the inertia until my despair grows bigger than my laziness and fears.
I don't think I'll get to 2025 tho

 

[avaruus]

Very very unlikely.
My SN should be arriving within a week or so.
I will most likely CTB immediately the very next day i get it.

 

[dospi1]

I really really hope not LOL

 

[DeadWallflower]

All I need is a method that works. I'm ready.

 

[ddn.ctb]

All I need is a method that works. I'm ready.

What type of method are you thinking about?

 

[DeadWallflower]

What type of method are you thinking

I'm not sure. I don't have any money, so, it's going to have to be something I can get or have on hand. I want something fast and nearly fool proof. It's going to be really cold temps this year. Maybe freeze to death? After taking sleeping pills or something. Having a difficult time finding methods on this forum.

Hbu?

 

[ddn.ctb]

I'm not sure. I don't have any money, so, it's going to have to be something I can get or have on hand. I want something fast and nearly fool proof. It's going to be really cold temps this year. Maybe freeze to death? After taking sleeping pills or something. Having a difficult time finding methods on this forum.

Hbu?

My method is hanging. It's fast all you need a rope and some place out of the way.

 

[StaringIntoAnAbyss]

Thinking about going this week just need to get more fucked up in my head but pretty much ready. I hope I just hope my method works if I try because I really wouldnt want suicide watch again.

 

[DeadWallflower]

My method is hanging. It's fast all you need a rope and some place out of the way.

I thought about that. Problem is I don't have anywhere to hang. With my luck I'd survive too.

 

[synthcadia]

i think i'll be here unless my life turns to shit (something happens to my partner or we break up).

 

[ddn.ctb]

I thought about that. Problem is I don't have anywhere to hang. With my luck I'd survive too.

Well I have practised with a rope over a closed door tied with knot to keep it from slipping through the door. I almost passed out as I was on my tippy toes bringing the weight down on my neck.

 

[StaringIntoAnAbyss]

Well I have practised with a rope over a closed door tied with knot to keep it from slipping through the door. I almost passed out as I was on my tippy toes bringing the weight down on my neck.

Did you put something in between your arteries and the rope ? Or just the rope

 

[venomousSSërpent74]

Yes but when the time comes im out

 

[hypnosis7]

Realistically, yes. I'm too afraid of ending up paralyzed or putting myself in a worse situation by failing to CTB. But it would be a great relief if I could just get taken out in a car accident or something.

 

[Is0lated]

Probably not
I have my tool kit ready to go, all I need is that sudden urge to do it, OR a partner to do it with

Maybe idk

 

[TransientEternal]

Hopefully not, probably yes.

 

[thedarkgod11]

I dont think so. This year has been the worse for my depression and I dont really want to do another year. I feel like whats the point of suffering more when i can find peace sooner

 

[Scythe]

Most likely, I have unfinished business. Hoping to finish it by next year, then I can die in peace.

 

[leavingsoon99]

No.

 

[letmejoindeath]

I have everything I need ready. Just going to spontaneously do it one night soon

I would be a fool to think that things will ever get better or that anyone will ever love me. Looking for signs to hang on but getting the opposite.