Not soon enough for me but no matter what all will be forgotten in non-existence anyway and this torturous and cruel existence will be no longer my concern which is all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious enslaved in this existence suffering all for the sake of it. I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'd just never wish for any of this unnecessary suffering rather all I hope for is to not exist, non-existence is all that's desirable for me, existence to me feels like a mistake and I find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way.