Help WILL THIS BE THE END FOR ME?

[binino]

I'm going to end my life, and that's completely decided in my mind.

Below I will show what I have access to so that you can help me succeed.

I currently have a total of:

3g clonazepam (I can get more, but I don't want to involve a family member)

Ibuprofen and dipyrone as needed.

I can get as much alcohol as necessary.

If I need any drug to suppress the urge to vomit, I can get that too.

If I mix a large amount of alcohol with clonazepam, will I actually die?

The maximum I've taken is 0.50mg, and that made me very sleepy.

If anyone here is interested in understanding my reasons, I would be happy to explain. But if you can and want to just be objective and help me with my protocol, I would be immensely grateful.

 

[ipmanwc0]

hi, none of those drugs are particularly dangerous, so no

 

[Wolff603]

look at the non-methods page

 

[Shadows From Hell]

Pills are one of the least effective ways to ctb. I learned that the hard way.

 

[binino]

Pills are one of the least effective ways to ctb. I learned that the hard way.

I think my biggest fear is trying, failing, and being forced to live with the shame and maybe even some side effects.

 

[copioushopelessness]

Ods with benzos and alcohol are possible but not guaranteed. It's more likely with opiates also. It's really hard to tell what will reliably work, what may kill one person may not kill another. How long it would take is a factor I always. How many pills is three grams anyway?
I'm always curious people's reasons for things if you want to share that with us.
What's your alcohol tolerance? Extreme nausea is definitely a possibility.
How are so many people getting benzos? Doctors around here rarely prescribe them. I remember the good ol' days where you could buy benzos for like .50c a piece. I would love to just have benzos to relax. I would definitely add them to my method.

 

[binino]

Ods with benzos and alcohol are possible but not guaranteed. It's more likely with opiates also. It's really hard to tell what will reliably work, what may kill one person may not kill another. How long it would take is a factor I always. How many pills is three grams anyway?
I'm always curious people's reasons for things if you want to share that with us.
What's your alcohol tolerance? Extreme nausea is definitely a possibility.
How are so many people getting benzos? Doctors around here rarely prescribe them. I remember the good ol' days where you could buy benzos for like .50c a piece. I would love to just have benzos to relax. I would definitely add them to my method.

I'm very weak when it comes to alcohol.

About three cans of beer usually get me drunk. Half a bottle of wine already gets me drunk.

I don't get nauseous enough to vomit, but I get very dizzy.
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Regarding my reasons:

Well, I've been struggling with depression in a very difficult and silent way for years.

For three years or more, I've been fighting this depression, but I hid it from my family because I never wanted to worry anyone.

Throughout this struggle, I've thought about killing myself many times. However, I didn't try it because I knew that if I did, I would make my mother so sad that she would also take her own life.

Well, six days ago she passed away, a victim of pancreatic cancer. And I genuinely feel more alone in the world than ever.

Her loss has proven to be a pain I can't overcome, and my sadness is now greater than ever... and now that she's not here, I feel I can move forward with this plan.

 

[copioushopelessness]

I'm very weak when it comes to alcohol.

About three cans of beer usually get me drunk. Half a bottle of wine already gets me drunk.

I don't get nauseous enough to vomit, but I get very dizzy.
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Regarding my reasons:

Well, I've been struggling with depression in a very difficult and silent way for years.

For three years or more, I've been fighting this depression, but I hid it from my family because I never wanted to worry anyone.

Throughout this struggle, I've thought about killing myself many times. However, I didn't try it because I knew that if I did, I would make my mother so sad that she would also take her own life.

Well, six days ago she passed away, a victim of pancreatic cancer. And I genuinely feel more alone in the world than ever.

Her loss has proven to be a pain I can't overcome, and my sadness is now greater than ever... and now that she's not here, I feel I can move forward with this plan.

I am very sorry for your loss! May her soul rest in peace. I lost my parents. I wish I could say it gets easier with time but it hasn't for me.
Loneliness is extremely tough. I will keep you in my thoughts. I know that all sounds so cliché. There are no words that can make that pain go away. I mean it, I will be thinking of you.