Venting Will my friends be mad at me if I end up going through with it?

[Eden.temp]

I've been having more trouble with suicidal thoughts lately, and I've noticed I feel a lot of guilt when interacting with friends or even meeting new people. There's this gnawing feeling that I'll end up hurting them if I CTB. You think they'll hate me?

P.s.: not actually planning anything yet, but I've been kinda down lately so I can't help thinking about the what ifs…

 

[BillyBob]

All depends on who they are and what they have been through and are understanding.
From my view it is that people who have not been depressed of had suicidal thoughts will never understand the reason someone will CTB.
There will always be a high chance they will be angry or that if you CTB. It is just part of the human behavior they will go oh poor me instead of actually caring that you have died.

 

[slightoverlooked]

I have a friend who lost her childhood friend to suicide and she has been in a very deep hole since then. She is also suicidal now and I can understand that. When I almost died I had to watch my friends and family in immense emotional pain and was very guilty. My friend (who im kinda dating) said he will ctb if i do.

what i want to say is that sadly with this decision there comes a burden.