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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
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I wrote in an earlier post that I took a vow not to ctb until both my parents were dead. The last one died in 2017. I have no children, spouse, romantic partner, or realistic prospect of finding one. My only sibling lives in another state and has her own family. I have very few friends. I have a reliable method. I am "good to go".

Will I ctb in 2022? Totally depends on what trauma might come my way.
 
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Julgran

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,427
I wrote in an earlier post that I took a vow not to ctb until both my parents were dead. The last one died in 2017. I have no children, spouse, romantic partner, or realistic prospect of finding one. My only sibling lives in another state and has her own family. I have very few friends. I have a reliable method. I am "good to go".

Will I ctb in 2022? Totally depends on what trauma might come my way.

Good luck - however you choose to act. I'm in a similar position to you :wink:
 
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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
What's kept you going this long? You said your vow was to wait until your parents passed, but that was four years ago.

What's kept you from CTB this whole time, and why isn't it working anymore?
 
Rayzieka

Rayzieka

Not Really Here
Apr 28, 2021
637
Well I hope the rest of your time is as best it can be.
I'm sorry to hear about your loss <3
 
nopointofliving

nopointofliving

Warrior
Apr 19, 2021
513
my situation is similar to yours. Let's see what life has for us?!!
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,046
What's kept you going this long? You said your vow was to wait until your parents passed, but that was four years ago.

What's kept you from CTB this whole time, and why isn't it working anymore?
I suppose it's just never gotten quite "that bad". But as I intimated, a major trauma could change that in a moment.
 
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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
I can understand that. Even on my best of days, I still feel like I'm little more than a house of cards that'll tumble over from a stiff breeze.

On my worst of days, I'm that same house but begging for that breeze to come.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,030
At least having a reliable way to exit means you have a way to leave this world at a time of your own choosing. One of the worst parts for me about this life, is that things can easily get much worse and make living absolutely unbearable. This life is terrifying. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,046
At least having a reliable way to exit means you have a way to leave this world at a time of your own choosing. One of the worst parts for me about this life, is that things can easily get much worse and make living absolutely unbearable. This life is terrifying. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.
Thank you. And I wish you well.
 

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