brokenhands
non-human
- May 17, 2026
- 13
hello, I have an appointment with my psych tomorrow and I've had kind of an... indirect attempt? and I wonder if it will get me sent to a hospital. I am probably overthinking this, but I REALLY don't want to go there right now, so I'm debating on whether I should even tell him that.
more about the "attempt": because of my recklessness I've ended up getting a concussion, I'm pretty sure it was indeed a concussion because of all the symptoms. and I thought fuck it why even bother going to the doctor - and so I just kept living and going to work like that. at one point I was pretty sure I was going to die,I felt weaker and weaker every day, my head spun like crazy and I could barely stand. my arms and legs were shaking so much and I was constantly on the verge of fainting. even then I did nothing, I just hoped I'd faint and never wake up from that. I get how silly that sounds now, but I guess the concussion did something to alter my thought process, and I genuinely believed that. so while it wasn't a full-on suicide attempt - it was something like that?? I definitely thought I'd die.
this happened 2 weeks ago and since then the symptoms have gradually died down and I almost feel fine now. I want to tell my psych about that, but I'm afraid what if I will get admitted involuntarily. I am probably overthinking, sorry
more about the "attempt": because of my recklessness I've ended up getting a concussion, I'm pretty sure it was indeed a concussion because of all the symptoms. and I thought fuck it why even bother going to the doctor - and so I just kept living and going to work like that. at one point I was pretty sure I was going to die,I felt weaker and weaker every day, my head spun like crazy and I could barely stand. my arms and legs were shaking so much and I was constantly on the verge of fainting. even then I did nothing, I just hoped I'd faint and never wake up from that. I get how silly that sounds now, but I guess the concussion did something to alter my thought process, and I genuinely believed that. so while it wasn't a full-on suicide attempt - it was something like that?? I definitely thought I'd die.
this happened 2 weeks ago and since then the symptoms have gradually died down and I almost feel fine now. I want to tell my psych about that, but I'm afraid what if I will get admitted involuntarily. I am probably overthinking, sorry