Will I ever be free?

[TRIXI3]

Sitting here once again, all alone, thinking about the could have beens in my life. Nothing really played out as it should have and I feel it's not really moving in the positive direction that it should be. My ex began texting me again a few days ago but his texts just seem different and he doesn't have much to really say to me anymore, and it hurts me more than anything. I wish he would just tell me now exactly how he feels. I don't know how I'm supposed to tell him that I plan to fly out and see him soon, as I feel like he may not even want me to anymore.

I honestly feel like I have nothing or nobody.

I went to Krispy Kreme with my sister this morning, that was a fun moment… other than that, I've wasted the rest of my day away being depressed as usual.

Not sure how to live and not just simply survive anymore.

 

[MrDarkness]

I know the feeling, I'm sick of feeling lonely but I also kinda love it, I don't feel like I'm being judged or insulted. I don't need to worry about how I look, and I can actually express myself, though I still wish to die lol

 

[TRIXI3]

I know the feeling, I'm sick of feeling lonely but I also kinda love it, I don't feel like I'm being judged or insulted. I don't need to worry about how I look, and I can actually express myself, though I still wish to die lol

I feel this on so many levels. I think you just explained that feeling perfectly.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that loneliness is painful for so many who exist here, existence is just too cruel and it must be really tiring suffering like that. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Loneliness can kill and is one of the major factors of metal problems in my opinion. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I wish you all the best and I hope you can find peace!