Will/Have you set a CTB date?

[ZeroM24]

I thought about doing it many times, but when the day actually comes I notice I am just too much of a coward to actually do it, altough I want. I hate myself so much for being even too useless to kill myself properly.

Everyday when I wake up I take minutes to actually have the power to stand up from bed cause I just want to lay and die, but then I try to set a date and still cant do it...fuck this stupid survival instinct bullshit!

 

[spectraltease]

Hm, I think ctb dates are problematic because how you said, most of the times it doesn't work out on that day.
I am more a fan about doing it when it feels right, not when the calendar tells me to yk. I think when you decide to do it on a special date, your SI will be bigger day by day till its there and you manifested it in your head so much but the fear too so nothing works.

 

[Depressed2]

Hopefully before the next year,or before the spring

 

[mangotango0249]

it's happening in 6 days. I agree that if your suicidal thoughts are periodic then setting a date can cause problems. But I've been in a non stop suicidal state for about 6 months now and I also gave myself no way to opt out at last minute. Im unemployed for months now doing things I alwasys wanted to do before ctb. savings are always drained all the way and Im so excited to be done with life.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

No, I don't set a specific date or time frame. It would put too much pressure on me. It's better to have a method prepared and when the personal situation is right, we can leave.

 

[aceless_spade]

I have not. I still hold hope no matter how my progress gets crushed. That said I have set dates in the past and psych wards got in the way of that. I agree with the people above saying that a date is not great due to the pressure. I really don't think it wise to give advice but I guess if you wish to do anything, do what you believe to feel right and don't be ashamed if it fails. Basic advice, but I don't really know what more I can say.

 

[cali22♡]

Yes, after my stay at the clinic because they are my last chance

 

[Hollowman]

The day I become homeless will be my last.

 

[ZeroM24]

The day I become homeless will be my last.

Yes thats definetely something I can say 100 % too. I can barely manage to leave my house when I have to work part-time but most of the time I am unemployed, this is going on for years, and I could never survive out there on the streets and dont want to.

 

[FuneralCry]

If I had the option to painlessly free myself from this existence in peace I'd be long gone, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, it just feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing to escape from all unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chosen that I always saw as so undesirable. What I would fear as well is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence.

 

[maka]

I want to do it ideally before Christmas so I don't have to spend the holidays alone again. I wanted to do it earlier, around December 1st, but I don't think my sn will arrive on time. If it does, I plan to do it as soon as I get my hands on it.