Why'd we all join? (is anyone else seeing a bunch of new users?)

[babydoctor]

I've been a long time watcher/lurker/reader/user of the site, but I only recently decided to make an account and start interacting more. Recently I feel like I've noticed quite a lot of new users posting frequently here. So I'm curious to know, for the new folk, why'd you join? How'd you hear about the site and all that?

And for the more long-term members, did it take you a while before you made an account?

I'd love to hear about what finally brought everyone here, since so many people with suicidal thoughts just sit with them or watch a video about it then do nothing.

 

[Exhausted546]

Trying to die, hopefully in the next 72 hours

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I made an account probably within days of finding the site.

 

[woofwag]

I became desperate to die to escape having to move back in with my mom after not being able (and still not being able) to find a job for over 5 months now. I'm disabled with no experience so I'm pretty much fucked. I looked up everything I could to find methods and eventually landed here. I'm very happy for it because it got me everything I need to die peacefully. And it's really nice to see a whole group of other people who have the same mentality about suicide as I do.

 

[babydoctor]

Trying to die, hopefully in the next 72 hours

Why so soon? And how do you feel about the site and the community so far during your time here?

 

[suacide]

I just wanted to talk about how I really felt somewhere where I won't be condescended upon.
There's nothing that makes me wanna leave faster than someone virtue signalling, acting like I'm the issue and telling me to "get help" as if they've ever seen how hard I've tried and for how long. Do they know that never helps, alienating people like that, or do they do it just to feel morally just?
But here I feel safe to just be honest. I don't need to bottle anything up, and I end up meeting people who feel the same.
And ironically, that makes me wanna stick around for just a little longer. I'm no longer in a rush, I'm taking my time but know if it ever gets to a point, it's always there.

 

[kuroshimi]

Just always wanted to talk about my feelings. Found site when looking for proper way to ctb just in case.

 

[Hime]

Holiday season is nearing up, a tough time for many... That's at least one of the reasons for why I joined. A place where I can share anything unfiltered and anonymously is really nice...

 

[_Vasa&Me_]

I have seen "that video" a few weeks back from a "popular" YouTuber, so the forum has been on my mind for a couple of weeks by the date I first joined here.

I didn't even visit it cuz I was scared and believed the propaganda that this site is the equivalent of a ghost giving me a handgun to shoot my brains out the second I check out a single post here.

Well a few weeks passed and my mental state has been declining further and further, so I decided (as a relatively open minded person) "what the heck, I have nothing to lose at this point, I am done with life anyways"

Well… boy am I glad to have made that decision, and that would be an UNDERSTATEMENT!

Firstly, not only did I realize that having a pro-choice forum doesn't equal pro-suicide (shocker I know), but that this place is full of like-minded individuals who are trying to ACTUALLY HELP each other WHILE battling demons of their own at the SAME TIME (superhumans I tell you!)

Like seriously, everybody here is so great and supportive to one another, we might all be distant, but it's kind of like a special family. So yeah… joining certainly helped me, as I realized that I am not alone, that I am not some kind of alien, but that theres many other people struggling just like me behind the scenes.

 

[thisIsNotEnough]

I got tired of burdening the people who know me with my suicidal thoughts. I want them to believe I'm not suicidal so I'll have an easier time ctb when I'm ready to and they don't have to worry as much / blame themselves for not helping enough.
I guess part of me also wants to be known after I'm gone, even just as a username on this site. The idea of people reading my post history and truly understanding why I did what I did is oddly comforting.

 

[Lesilorula]

Wanted to find a cowardly way to end it. I'm afraid I've found that this site too late though, I've waited too long and caused damage to myself in the process. Btw I've known this site exist for almost a year but only checked it out yesterday, I registered the same day.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Hello and welcome to the (as you know) caring community. Responding as an older user, I made an account the moment I discovered the site. I did not even know about lurking until after I joined. I was so happy to join to find a method since I became suicidal basically overnight after my world collapsed. But anyways, I remember receiving the approval of membership email while I was at work and couldn't wait to get home to access the site for the first time. It was the happiest moment in many months and one of the last happy moments since. The other happy moments were when I cracked the code for an SN source back then, and finally placing my order a whole six months later due to timing and an unreal roller coaster ride since then.

 

[Erwynminty]

I've been a long time watcher/lurker/reader/user of the site, but I only recently decided to make an account and start interacting more. Recently I feel like I've noticed quite a lot of new users posting frequently here. So I'm curious to know, for the new folk, why'd you join? How'd you hear about the site and all that?

And for the more long-term members, did it take you a while before you made an account?

I'd love to hear about what finally brought everyone here, since so many people with suicidal thoughts just sit with them or watch a video about it then do nothing.

I just want to talk to people who suffer through similar things. I feel alone with the topic in real life.

 

[Dr.Duck]

I heard about it through a YouTube video that was calling this place pro-suicide. Since I also am not doing great and that I think it's important to fact check. I looked for the place they called SS which led me here. I read through threads and found it very welcoming, kind, and caring. So I decided to stay and make an account, so I could finally vent without the problems that come with that.

 

[U. A.]

This thread is a very interesting piece of evidence that more (possibly younger) people have been finding their way here than the time when I joined—and even more so before—whose primary aim is to, quite literally, "talk about feelings" to quote a post in this very thread.
Digging into historical post pages you see very quickly there was much much less talk of anything not strictly related to accomplishing suicide. These days there is a lot of trauma dumping, non-suicidal self-harm vents, and people looking to make friends.
Aside from the latter which imo is a horrid idea in a place like this, these are just interesting changes in the landscape that this site has seen.

 

[bunnƴ]

Seemed like a special forum and I realized it related to me

 

[Tautochrome]

I read about the forum in some anti-suicide article, so of course I had to check it out. Since I've completely given up on life long ago, it seemed like a perfect place to find info on peaceful exit methods

 

[kuroshimi]

I heard about it through a YouTube video that was calling this place pro-suicide. Since I also am not doing great and that I think it's important to fact check. I looked for the place they called SS which led me here. I read through threads and found it very welcoming, kind, and caring. So I decided to stay and make an account, so I could finally vent without the problems that come with that.

What's video about? I have read many articles in which this site was mentioned as "pro-suicide" as well, but at that point I was already convinced that this was not the case. That's why I am here.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

I joined a little minute ago.

I was on the subreddit (because, ya know, my death will probably be at my own hands eventually) before reddit decided the vibe didn't work. I was saddened when that happened. I found out from a comment on another subreddit that the website exists. And here I am. Like many, there's no one in my personal life that I am both A. close enough to confide such feelings in and B. that isn't then made acutely distressed by my doing so (ie my husband -- lovely human, thankfully does not suffer from suicidal ideation and therefore does not "get" it).

 

[Dr.Duck]

What's video about? I have read many articles in which this site was mentioned as "pro-suicide" as well, but at that point I was already convinced that this was not the case. That's why I am here.

Here's the video

 

[kuroshimi]

Here's the video

ohh, i've seen this on my feed a while ago. Haven't watched it yet. The time has come, ig. Thanks

 

[Dr.Duck]

ohh, i've seen this on my feed a while ago. Haven't watched it yet. The time has come, ig. Thanks

Welcome!! ^^

 

[Oreki]

Here's the video

That's the very same reason that led me to this site

I just wanted to get some insight into what others are struggling with, and because I myself am suicidal. Sometimes more, sometimes less. I've got a lot of chaos in my head right now, venting might not really help, but it's good to know there are like-minded people out there

 

[dewdfish]

Found it on twitter as I'm a part of the shtwt, then I've been lurking for quite some time. Suicide was always my way out, I've been diagnosed with bipolar as a teenager, been in therapy, taking medications and some attempts throughout the years. Then i met my ex-fiancé which made life wonderful for me and I had put that thought away, as we had plans for a future, family, house, all that good stuff. But then he broke up with me 2 months ago and I've attempted at least 5 times during this moment. Then I created my account to share my thoughts, opinions on my methods available and now I'm here. Made 2 posts already and been interacting with some.

 

[lovelydove]

I'm a long time lurker too, and I only started posting a little recently.

I found this website back in senior year of highschool I think, but I only made an account last year during my sophomore year of college. I honestly don't remember how I found this site. My guess is I found it through reddit or I might've just stumbled upon it while trying to find methods.

I joined so I could bookmark threads and save any information about ctb.

 

[Exhausted546]

Why so soon? And how do you feel about the site and the community so far during your time here?

Good people

My finals start in that amount of time, failing them (which im going to, felt too much despair the entire semester to even study) would have me kicked out. I prefer to die before that happens. There's a lot more to it but whatever

 

[SarahThrowsGin]

Found this site years ago, I'm used to doing years of lurking before I register anywhere. I think I first found this place by looking for it: an Engish-speaking place where you can discuss suicide freely. So I registered after I tried to give talk therapy one last chance, and the specialist told me he can't handle a person who thinks of suicide as a viable choice (an alternative that will always be considered as a backup plan), rather than a definite problem. Withholding important thoughts when already having much on my plate was unacceptable for me, so I decided to bring them to the place where you don't have to hide them.

 

[Grog]

I don't have anyone in my personal life who is comfortable talking about suicidal thoughts and feelings. So, I came here.

The experience has been a mixed bag, to be quite honest.

 

[LostZombie]

I wanted to use my knowledge of chemistry to help people on here, I want to be able to allow people to have control over their own bodies. Not letting people buy something because they could kill themselves with it is stupid. So I made a guide to making SN so that people could regain their bodily autonomy. I also just wanted a place where I could just be me without being judged, since anywhere else I will get told I'm crazy.

 

[madeincruddy]

I just joined today, lol. Similarly to other people, I heard about this site a few years ago now from that video but hadn't really thought about it since.

The site popped into my head shortly after I got home from therapy a few days ago. The name stuck in my mind, so I was able to find it pretty easily. I skimmed over a few threads before finally deciding to register for an account.

As for what drew me in, I'm pretty much the same as everyone else. Frankly, I was tired of always having to choose my words carefully when the topic of suicidal ideation came up. I used to be a part of ED and SH twitter, but those communities felt less 'secure' to me, it's extremely easy for people stumble upon or even seek out just to put ppl on blast. SaSu feels more, idk, obscure? Plus, being on a forum like SaSu means most users have a baseline understanding of what we're tired of hearing, so way less patronizing/condescending comments.