Why?

[Deleted member 17949]

I am lonely. I am unable to manage stress and get lots of anxiety. I am depressed and find it impossible to motivate myself to do anything. Feels in general like I am putting a lot of effort into very small tasks and feeling punished for not getting far enough with anything.

 

[Joey]

I've lived my entire life so far with my own head in the sand and it feels like I really haven't been myself at all. I knew that I was coasting this entire time with school, gaming addiction, and now the uncertainty of the future. A certain part of me knows that I won't make it in this world and if something ever will happen to my parents, I'm legit screwed. I'm stuck in this low rut and don't ever see myself getting out of it. I could go on and on but there's that..

 

[No point72]

Why do you want ctb?

Because I'll never experience anything good that most people take for granted...being proposed to, wedding dress shopping, wedding day, house buying, maybe babies, making a life with someone else
Absolutely NO enjoyment in life
What does ctb actually stand for ??

 

[timeisnigh]

What does ctb actually stand for ??

Generally accepted, catch the bus, said to be from catching the bus to The Beachy Head

Also used, closing the books or ceasing to breathe

 

[Ybother]

The future looks really bleak, especially for people like me. I had a sheltered and tumultuous childhood and I never grew up properly. I don't know what to do with my life as I have no "real world" experience. This world has no use for me, and that's okay because I'm tired of this game.
Every day feels like a battle with myself, its been like that for as long as I can remember. Also ere's nothing for me look forward. Friends come and go, and we only love conditionally so I'm not staying for someone else.
I've let everyone down but it serves them right for believing in me in the first place. I still try to be positive but I always end up back on this forum.
When you've got nothing, you got nothing to lose. I just wish I was brave enough to actually Do something. Even if that means suicide. Who says you must go on? Probably better for me to end it soon before I screw it up even more.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

14 years of depression that has steadily been getting worse. Can't get over the past and crushes from high school who I never talked to. Can't accept that there is no going back. Addiction to pornography which has ruined my life, my confidence, and hopes of ever meeting someone. Can't talk to girls and feel like dying when I see happy couples. Anxiety which has basically sentenced me to take the path of least resistance and never achieve my dreams. It's only a matter of time. Thank God.

 

[melp]

I always wanted to end myself

 

[Hornyaboutdeath]

I can't connect with people.

 

[timeisnigh]

Can't get over the past ... Can't accept that there is no going back ... It's only a matter of time. Thank God.

Amen

 

[Sinai Silence]

I've wanted to end my life since I was 13. Years of abuse and trauma have taken its toll. Being consumed by depression and anxiety in my teens meant that I've amounted to nothing and the loneliness is crushing. If I carried on I'd eventually end up homeless and finding a job in the current state of the economy is next to impossible. Life just isn't worth living.

 

[thx1138]

I feel you're pain we been through many of the same things if i could figure out how send a message to you i would like to talk more cause we been through very similar stuff and i was never able to talk about it with anyone

Hi, I sent you a message. I'm always there if you want to talk