Venting why would anyone post their FAILED suicide attempt, it’s really embarrassing.

[notevenhere]

there's people who go to school or work the next day like they didn't just break the rope after hanging the previous day or like, people who attempt and then throw up and two hours later, get back on discord playing video games with friends like it didn't just happen. i feel like people who are genuinely actually suicidal kinda doesn't make a big deal out of it, because it'll happen eventually and wouldn't matter. when i swallowed a whole bottle of benzos, i just kinda stayed out of it for a week until it was out of my system bc the hospital didn't have stomach pump and my piece of shit abusive family didn't wanna try to drive to another hospital that has it.

i feel like they kinda do it for validation but it genuinely pisses me off bc it means people still care for them and it's kinda just asking for attention? i made sure when i do die nobody will remember me bc it's been like a year or two since i actually interacted with an irl. i only have my boyfriend and even then, he's kinda anticipating the end of my life anyways by dissociating. we kinda accept it.

it's cringe im even talking about it instead of just doing it, like imagine me finally taking SN and throwing up - that's me failing - i would just lie and say i had food poisoning or something

im actually excited to ctb and very much relieved nobody will miss me. even if they do feel sad about the news at least im glad they think i was worth something which is literally a lie anyways - im worth nothing and anyone who'd be sad for my passing didn't really know me or is just kind.

im past my deadline for two months now i really cannot keep stalling…. i didnt think id be able to see the anime for my favorite game being adapted (needy girl overdose) and then see a new charli xcx album or even watch the drama with my bf tmr

kinda upset i haven't done it yet but these things take a lot of time and failing would cost me everything so yeah. just a rant.

 

[Shiitake]

wtf is this thread

 

[purebliss]

there's people who go to school or work the next day like they didn't just break the rope after hanging the previous day or like, people who attempt and then throw up and two hours later, get back on discord playing video games with friends like it didn't just happen. i feel like people who are genuinely actually suicidal kinda doesn't make a big deal out of it, because it'll happen eventually and wouldn't matter. when i swallowed a whole bottle of benzos, i just kinda stayed out of it for a week until it was out of my system bc the hospital didn't have stomach pump and my piece of shit abusive family didn't wanna try to drive to another hospital that has it.

i feel like they kinda do it for validation but it genuinely pisses me off bc it means people still care for them and it's kinda just asking for attention? i made sure when i do die nobody will remember me bc it's been like a year or two since i actually interacted with an irl. i only have my boyfriend and even then, he's kinda anticipating the end of my life anyways by dissociating. we kinda accept it.

it's cringe im even talking about it instead of just doing it, like imagine me finally taking SN and throwing up - that's me failing - i would just lie and say i had food poisoning or something

im actually excited to ctb and very much relieved nobody will miss me. even if they do feel sad about the news at least im glad they think i was worth something which is literally a lie anyways - im worth nothing and anyone who'd be sad for my passing didn't really know me or is just kind.

im past my deadline for two months now i really cannot keep stalling…. i didnt think id be able to see the anime for my favorite game being adapted (needy girl overdose) and then see a new charli xcx album or even watch the drama with my bf tmr

kinda upset i haven't done it yet but these things take a lot of time and failing would cost me everything so yeah. just a rant.

Brother, is everything fine?
This read like a psychotic episode.

Everyone copes differently with them failing their attempt. Ironically you posted yourself now that you failed a suicide attempt as well.

It is extremely arrogant to say that "your way of grief" is the right way and everyone else's way of coping with their issues is invalid.

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

I mean...life goes on whether you like it or not. Was I supposed to rot away after my failed attempt? Man I got bills to pay and assignments due. I gotta work. If I failed I might as well keep on living. Have some empathy.

 

[PaperAK]

It gets to a point where you just stop caring. I couldn't care less if I died or not, if I tried to die it's not like I was sad or happy or anything, it's just simply another task to complete my day. If it fails, then its nothing but a minor inconvenience to me, I just couldn't care less

 

[whywere]

Totally agree with @vyvanceandvodka, please have a lot of empathy, as we are ALL together and being negative of such helps no one ever.

Walter

 

[Bikishii]

So we're gatekeeping the validity of suicide attempts now just because someone decided to talk about it afterwards?

 

[U. A.]

Of all the things on this website to complain about (except you don't even really complain about it)

 

[spero_meliora]

of all the websites to lack empathy on...

 

[Exhausted546]

I mean...life goes on whether you like it or not. Was I supposed to rot away after my failed attempt? Man I got bills to pay and assignments due. I gotta work. If I failed I might as well keep on living. Have some empathy.

I understood it differently. The way I understood it
"You either fail,get up ,stay quiet about it and continue life as if nothing happened then try at a later date" which op has no issue with.

Op feels envious for those who fail, tell loved ones about it and get support from these loved ones as no one supported op that much. Op wonders if these cases aren't just cries for attention as if they were serious, op believes they would have continued their usual routine as if nothing happened instead of making a big deal about their failed attempt

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

There's no 'right' or 'wrong' way to be suicidal. I don't have the energy to hand hold you through why your perspective is fucked up, but please understand you're coming across as an incredibly immature and pretentious asshole.

 

[Matchaaa]

failed attempt isn't embarrassing at all. If you find it embarrassing, perhaps you should consider what societal norms have led you to feel that way.

 

[dhk96]

I understood it differently. The way I understood it
"You either fail,get up ,stay quiet about it and continue life as if nothing happened then try at a later date" which op has no issue with.

Op feels envious for those who fail, tell loved ones about it and get support from these loved ones as no one supported op that much. Op wonders if these cases aren't just cries for attention as if they were serious, op believes they would have continued their usual routine as if nothing happened instead of making a big deal about their failed attempt

That and maybe they meant those who blast the news of their attempt on social media for all to see. Rather than sharing how they feel with a like-minded community (i.e. SaSu), or even those close to them who would understand.