JustovertheBS
Member
- Jul 2, 2020
- 30
I wish I knew! I'm nothing! I look in the mirror and see ugly, even tho I'm told how beautiful I am all the time. I don't feel pretty. Never have. I'm the ugliest person alive! I've been hurting for so long. My son died accidentally and I've been a shell of a person since it happened. I hate this fn world. The unfairness of every damn thing. I dont find joy in anything. I'm just living...(breathing) yet dead inside. Literally a dead soul. Who can I even talk to? Only this place offers me a chance to get this shit out. You guys dont judge me. Thank you for that.
I want to be dead and gone. The end of me for good. I have no reason to be here. None. Life is bullshit. Repetitious bs! It will never be any different...never get easier to be here. Just existing, with no real purpose. What's the point? Wake up and do the same identical thing I did yesterday. I'm worthless!!!!! I have no purpose at all. I long to be with my son again. He understood me. Was my only real friend. People have wanted my life. Told me how blessed I am. To have a beautiful home, car, material shit. And then there's the "wanting my looks"...ha!!!! I wish they really knew how ugly I truly am. This face hides so much pain. How can they not see it???? To be labeled as a beauty, but to feel the opposite is quite funny actually. Take this face, body, all of it!!! Please! I just want to be happy. That will never be. Wtf IS happy? I walk around in a world full of idiots. They all think differently than i do. They don't get how stupid it is to even be here. Born to die. Lol. That's it. Work until death. Why wait? F it all! Venting today. I'm sorry. Just scroll past me and my rant. Grief has done this to me.
I want to be dead and gone. The end of me for good. I have no reason to be here. None. Life is bullshit. Repetitious bs! It will never be any different...never get easier to be here. Just existing, with no real purpose. What's the point? Wake up and do the same identical thing I did yesterday. I'm worthless!!!!! I have no purpose at all. I long to be with my son again. He understood me. Was my only real friend. People have wanted my life. Told me how blessed I am. To have a beautiful home, car, material shit. And then there's the "wanting my looks"...ha!!!! I wish they really knew how ugly I truly am. This face hides so much pain. How can they not see it???? To be labeled as a beauty, but to feel the opposite is quite funny actually. Take this face, body, all of it!!! Please! I just want to be happy. That will never be. Wtf IS happy? I walk around in a world full of idiots. They all think differently than i do. They don't get how stupid it is to even be here. Born to die. Lol. That's it. Work until death. Why wait? F it all! Venting today. I'm sorry. Just scroll past me and my rant. Grief has done this to me.