maidens
" more dead than alive, I endure it "
- Aug 27, 2023
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I can't even push myself to do the simplest of things. right now I'm laying on the ground with a blanket. I'm supposed to be doing something but I physically can't push myself to get up and I hate it. sometimes can't even get water or something to eat. I don't remember when it got this bad.
if I'm dead I can't suffer, do things I don't want to, think about things I don't want to, see the people I don't like, be hurt in any way and there will no longer be a way for me to do anything at all. there is no reason I shouldn't die. I've asked my mom several times why she keeps me alive (I still live with my parents) and she always either doesn't answer or says something along the lines of "because I don't want you to." I can't take it anymore
if I'm dead I can't suffer, do things I don't want to, think about things I don't want to, see the people I don't like, be hurt in any way and there will no longer be a way for me to do anything at all. there is no reason I shouldn't die. I've asked my mom several times why she keeps me alive (I still live with my parents) and she always either doesn't answer or says something along the lines of "because I don't want you to." I can't take it anymore