Why is the noose so tempting?

[sussshiroll]

So lately I have been having manic episodes of depression and been crafting nooses on top of the nooses I have the technique to tie them down to a tee. But I don't have the strength to put it around my neck and actually go through the suicide last night my mother caught me putting it around my neck and beat my ass I can't even kill myself properly should I od on my HRT meds at this point I don't even know what to do I am such a failure i can't even kill myself properly. I don't even know why i am on this forum anymore I am just depressed listening to ellujins music but it makes me wanna kill myself even more. imma just go back to self harming and listening to scenecore this is too much work

 

[yourbloodymess]

dang that's crazy, what's your fav song by elujjin?

 

[sussshiroll]

dang that's crazy, what's your fav song by elujjin?

none all of them they all make me suicidal thats why i listen to them

 

[Kay567]

Damn i feel u on heavily on this one, my mom walked in when i was attempting this, instead of kms using the role she saw the potential of a slut i am and made me do Shibari instead of killing myself. Gave me a whole new purpose in life.

 

[sussshiroll]

Damn i feel u on heavily on this one, my mom walked in when i was attempting this, instead of kms using the role she saw the potential of a slut i am and made me do Shibari instead of killing myself. Gave me a whole new purpose in life.

report her to the police unless you into incest you freak