Hello
In the last three years of my life I have lost everything. The last great loss I had was my girlfriend whom I saw leave this world. She no longer wanted to continue and I did not dare to die with her.
Why can't I? Now I am looking for a partner to see if I dare to do it but every time someone shows interest in being my partner something happens and the agreement is not made. There was even a person who already had the ticket in their hands AND DID NOT COME (I am in Peru and she is in Argentina). It is as if there were some kind of force preventing me from leaving. I want to leave, just rest... I know that there is something beyond human life and although I do not try to convince anyone of this, I also know that there are wonderful people waiting for me on the other side. I want to leave. I don't know what to do. I have N with me, I got two doses because I was hoping to do it with someone else... but I don't dare to go alone. Why? How can I control that and just leave this life?
In the last three years of my life I have lost everything. The last great loss I had was my girlfriend whom I saw leave this world. She no longer wanted to continue and I did not dare to die with her.
Why can't I? Now I am looking for a partner to see if I dare to do it but every time someone shows interest in being my partner something happens and the agreement is not made. There was even a person who already had the ticket in their hands AND DID NOT COME (I am in Peru and she is in Argentina). It is as if there were some kind of force preventing me from leaving. I want to leave, just rest... I know that there is something beyond human life and although I do not try to convince anyone of this, I also know that there are wonderful people waiting for me on the other side. I want to leave. I don't know what to do. I have N with me, I got two doses because I was hoping to do it with someone else... but I don't dare to go alone. Why? How can I control that and just leave this life?
