Why Is It so difficult to die? Why do i have to feel guilty?

[Sersilv1]

I got my SN, 99% purity. I got anti hemetics, lexotan and ibuprofene.
I will go in the Woods near my house, its the same place i want to be buried, take the SN and look at the stars.
I have suffered depression for 15 years, found a boy who made me taste life for the first time and broke up with me in the nastiest way possible. It seems like losing something you cannot replace and going back to misery.
My parents have never really cared about my Deep depression. No friends. No job. I am not interested in anything, i just would have that Person back, but will not happen. I called for help all of my relatives and they didin't care much. I don't feel guilty, i don't care if someone will cry. Everyone abandoned me, everyone knew how fragile i was, even authorities. I wrote letters for all of them, i wrote letters for myself. guess It Is my time to go and end this suffering, Hope It wont hurt so much, i feel ready and i have no survival instinct. I don't eat. I don't go outside. I wake up and Just think about how cruel this world was with me while i always gave 100% of me to the people i loved.
Life Is cruel. This world Is cruel. We should all be allowed to stop living when It gets too hard, even leaving this world Is so difficult

 

[HateMyPointlessLife]

Sorry to hear what you've had to go through. I know what it's like to feel abandoned and done with life. And tired of being made to feel guilty. I wish life was less cruel.

 

[Lonerzepam]

I wish you a peacefull journey into the endless abyss ❤

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry you have suffered so much. I wish you a peaceful journey. Your chosen setting sounds beautiful.

 

[Sersilv1]

I'm so sorry you have suffered so much. I wish you a peaceful journey. Your chosen setting sounds beautiful.

I will have my dog buried next to me in the woods when his time Will come. He's pretty old and i want our tombstones to be next to each other

 

[Forever Sleep]

I will have my dog buried next to me in the woods when his time Will come. He's pretty old and i want our tombstones to be next to each other

That's so beautiful. ❤

 

[FuneralCry]

To me the existence of life is nothing more than a cruel mistake. There is nothing fair about life and it's tragic how humans have the ability to feel such extreme pain. Hearing about all of the suffering that people go through increases my dislike for life. But pain is simply inevitable in this life. Even those who don't suffer much now will likely suffer a lot in the future. But humans certainly make things worse in this life, many just create and inflict more suffering. It sounds really tiring what you have been through and I agree that it can even be very difficult to finally be free from this life. I wish you freedom from this cruel existence.

 

[Sersilv1]

To me the existence of life is nothing more than a cruel mistake. There is nothing fair about life and it's tragic how humans have the ability to feel such extreme pain. Hearing about all of the suffering that people go through increases my dislike for life. But pain is simply inevitable in this life. Even those who don't suffer much now will likely suffer a lot in the future. But humans certainly make things worse in this life, many just create and inflict more suffering. It sounds really tiring what you have been through and I agree that it can even be very difficult to finally be free from this life. I wish you freedom from this cruel existence.

I am extremely tired. I have been lied to and abandoned multiple times. My Life has been tasteless since i was a child. I suffered multiple abuse as a child.
My ex boyfriend, i feel pure love for him and he forgot about me in two days, After 2 years together.. i don't even know how Is this humanly possible. He also said he doesnt care if i die, so i don't feel guilty for him
I feel Just a Little bit Sorry about mom and dad, parents never really recover from these things, but i cannot keep suffering just for this reason.