Story time, so I'm 40 and well spent most of my life alone. I've had depression almost all my life with a ton of social anxiety to throw into the mix. I spent the past decade really trying to change things. Talking to psychologist's and psychiatrists, both had their usefulness's. Over the past two years my life has changed massively volunteering, a job changed to the point I even got into university. The people who helped me and said they would support me, who's help is still needed to stay in university. Now one (A) is making it as difficult as they can for me to keep my place. See for university I needed a sponsor and reference and she (A) suggested herself first, but because I was already getting help from her colleague I asked them. They couldn't because of other commitments.
Now her (A) ideas and suggesting's now seem designed for me fail or quit. Her colleague is still helping me but (A) has some serious misinformation thinking me and her colleague are meeting when were not, we sent 3 emails (her work email) over 3 hours, yes we talked about meeting and decided it wasn't needed 2 weeks ago.
But (A) still questioning if I'm meeting her colleague and questioned my response to that too.
So today I felt i had to messages her (A) colleague saying I won't me needing her help (I still do) and because times an issue, saying thanks for all the help but probably wont see each other.
With (A) we spoke quite a bit about my past and I said growing up the thought of dying that was the only happiness I had, to what now makes/made me happy. (A) has taking most of that away and then started in person and emails says, do what makes you happy do what brings you happiness.
That's kind of what brought me back to the site.
Now her (A) ideas and suggesting's now seem designed for me fail or quit. Her colleague is still helping me but (A) has some serious misinformation thinking me and her colleague are meeting when were not, we sent 3 emails (her work email) over 3 hours, yes we talked about meeting and decided it wasn't needed 2 weeks ago.
But (A) still questioning if I'm meeting her colleague and questioned my response to that too.
So today I felt i had to messages her (A) colleague saying I won't me needing her help (I still do) and because times an issue, saying thanks for all the help but probably wont see each other.
With (A) we spoke quite a bit about my past and I said growing up the thought of dying that was the only happiness I had, to what now makes/made me happy. (A) has taking most of that away and then started in person and emails says, do what makes you happy do what brings you happiness.
That's kind of what brought me back to the site.
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