Crazy4u
Enlightened
- Sep 29, 2021
- 1,318
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Cherry Crumpet
Hiraeth
- May 7, 2018
- 283
CTB is a safety net for me. I think of it more in theory than execution. As in - if things get so fucking bad that I can't take it, I can go out on my own terms. I'm not bound by any rule to play this fucked up game if I don't want to. At the moment, I'm doing okay and have hope.
It's that safety net, it gives me a sense of tranquility and peace.
CiproKilledMe
Experienced
- Mar 23, 2021
- 243
Terrified of failing and making things even WORSE for myself (unfathomable). Not to mention the fact that I don't want to die. But I have to.I thought I was holding on for my child, but the vile things that keep coming out of his craw reminds me that I have nobody left to worry about. Honestly, at this point I'm waiting for my deceased parents' animals to pass away so I can rehome my pup and find my peace. Seems like the little buggers will naturally outlive me.
WrongPlaceWrongTime
Better never to have been
- Jul 4, 2021
- 694
deathisawesome
cant wait for the void and nothingness❤️🩹
- Dec 9, 2021
- 29
Family members that need me and the lack of access to peaceful and easy methods and fear of failure
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,356
Just wanted some last little time with my family so they don't feel awful in the end.
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,604
maakies
DOOK
- Dec 7, 2021
- 132
My partner and my peers keep giving me assignments and projects that make people depend on me. It's kind of annoying. I'm waiting for the day that people stop asking for my help and honestly, I'm making it so people aren't so inclined to ask for my help anymore.
Also drugs. Xanax and ketamine mostly.
Depressed_Kettle
Experienced
- Apr 25, 2021
- 252
Family visits. My last chance to spend time with them before I go. After, I'll feel more comfortable leaving. Then another reason is that I'm scared too.
Q-Dust
Am literally a rhododendron
- Jun 9, 2019
- 51
I'm stupidly afraid of heights, Sat on a window sill once and realized that my body wouldn't let me move at allI'm trying to decide if I should get more SN after I opened my bottle of SN yesterday...
But other than that, I'm all ready to go too.
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,401
Me too actually, I've been trying to find reasons to quit with the phase 4 movies mostly being ok I still find myself enjoying them enough.
cambrai33
Traveller
- Nov 3, 2021
- 385
Exhausting all options of getting help first.
EBaying all my possessions and sorting out admin.
Means to ctb are in place and in reality I think I have 4 weeks left before I go, I am very calm and content, I have no emotion left to feel
ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,560
Still have a few exciting things to do. Once I grow bored of everything, I'll just wait for a very bad day to ctbI've been practicing my SN routine with regular salt and it's not going well. I gag every time I think about it and I puked twice.I'm afraid I'll screw it up and be stuck with some sort of permanent physical damage.im giving life a little more time, as i am still young. i just have a sliver of hope things will get better, but i dont know.
Honestly, my dog is the only thing keeping me here. I'd either have to kill him, which I could never harm a hair on his head. Or I'd have to kill myself and die knowing that he will live the rest of his life thinking he wasn't enough for me, that I just abandoned him.
i hope you are able to spend some quality time with them :) wishing you and your sons the best!
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,604
Adamsnolife
Arcanist
- May 5, 2020
- 401
Timing really. UK lockdown in the past has affected my timing and possible restrictions on travel could hamper that again
LeGuitarist
Eternally Lost
- Mar 19, 2021
- 116
I'm biding my time until I find the perfect method. Life is just sufferable enough for me to be content waiting for a lethal, quick, painless, and peaceful death. I'm aware it probably won't happen, but no harm in biding my time. The more patient I am, the more likely I am to uncover the perfect method for me.Similar threads
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