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scaredycat84
Forever and ever, Amen
- Dec 29, 2021
- 13
My whole life, I've watched everyone around me be loved and cared for and treated well and helped out and given affection, time, patience understanding etc.
But I've never myself received any of that.
I try my HARDEST I'm serious I make the conscious effort in every relationship I'm in wether it's famil, friends or lovers, to be as good as I can be and give them exactly what I want in return but I'm lied to, cheated on, abused in every way possible (not abused in all relationships but far too many of them) and I'm never taken out looked after, thought of, etc.
I fall by the wayside every time and I'm so lonely I can't do it anymor. Im independent for sure so I don't wanna sound needy but sometimes I get tired of being strong abd independent I want to have someone love me and look out for me if only just once to know what it feels like.
Maybe I'm asking too much
But I've never myself received any of that.
I try my HARDEST I'm serious I make the conscious effort in every relationship I'm in wether it's famil, friends or lovers, to be as good as I can be and give them exactly what I want in return but I'm lied to, cheated on, abused in every way possible (not abused in all relationships but far too many of them) and I'm never taken out looked after, thought of, etc.
I fall by the wayside every time and I'm so lonely I can't do it anymor. Im independent for sure so I don't wanna sound needy but sometimes I get tired of being strong abd independent I want to have someone love me and look out for me if only just once to know what it feels like.
Maybe I'm asking too much