Discussion why do i feel so dumb now

[Buh-bye!]

It feels weird to say this but i feel like i have gotten dumber as i set my path to recovery. from the night i decided to give things another shot i have just been following coping methods everyday to get me through my mental issues, and, i have sort of numbed down the thinking ability of my brain - i cannot comprehend things like i did before when i had the suicidal ideation.
does anybody else feel like this happened to them?
is there a reason to why this happens and a cure?


Postscript: i was going through some old notes i had written, poems and stuffs, logical arguments and explanations for things of interest but, today as i was looking at them i realized my brain ( at the moment ) is not at all capable of writing such poems and notes. i forgot a lot of things too. and realizing that i have turned so much worse than how i was before has made me insanely anxious.
2. my plan of recovery was to go ahead with some exams, improve my scores and have a better chance at things through that. but if i have turned dumber how'll i do any of that ??

i personally believe it's mostly the cope that makes my thinking abilities cloudy and pushes me to the very edge of laziness, but any other insight might just be useful.

thankyou, have a great year ahead.

 

[timf]

Sometimes being fixated on a single act can give a clarity because peripheral issues seem to fall away. Having to process all of the normal ambiguity of life can make things seem less clear. It is not that you are less brilliant, it may be that you are just having to process more. You might be able to gain some clarity if you can relegate some of the things you are dealing with to a lower priority. This might give you more clarity on the things you wish to address.

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

I had these thoughts too, like, being a suicidal made me low-key more laidback and with less risk aversion, overall. I tried more things, I remember that I used to structure puzzles for some RPGs, for example. Today I loke at my old notes and think "wow, no way I can do this today"
Maybe it's just about "non-linear progress" tho