A lack of a local partner to share their acquired peacefully materials. That's why I'm still here. I found SS because of the partners mega thread after all. That's why sadly I'm still here. It's very hard, not just waiting, but fearing a partner may never come. Before anyone judges, I lack money lack means lack a car and I can't even afford a hotel. I'm just making ends me casually and by living at home in my mid 20s.
Nothing else I can do. Yes, it's pitiful.