Why are you still alive?

[satou]

1. I am quite good at mentally suppressing negative experiences in my life. Sure, I might have no friends, still live with my parents, never had a job in my life and rarely go outside of the house, despite being in my 30s... but wait, I can read this manga while listening to music today!
Somehow the stupid fact that I am balding pisses me off the most.

2. I still have some hope that somehow things will work out. It might... maybe...
I am capable of being happy when I am free of stress, I just suck at fitting into society and dealing with most people, so stress is never far away.

I am here should reason #2 not work out; to memorize a good and simple method should I need it a few years from now. Because when I get depressed I have no energy or motivation to figure these things out. Reason #1 is why I probably won't visit this place again after my initial interest wears off after a week or so.

 

[Ghab]

Haven't found a method that works.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Stupidity.

It takes me a while to convince myself of stuff, but I eventually do. It's like shopping. You look at it a while, think about it. Ultimately, I end up buying it. Need to buy this gun soon.

 

[CentreMid]

I'm still planning. Hopefully I'll figure out what to do soon

 

[Lara Francis]

I do ask myself that everyday and there is only one answer and it is for my 9 year old son.The next step if I ever manage to take it, is to live for myself too.

This seems like a distant dream and unreachable.

 

[bigj75]

You have a son dependent on you? I'm sorry, but you have absolutely no right to kill yourself. None, whatsoever. My dad killed himself when I was 18 and needed him most and it has destroyed me and my mother. How could you even contemplate such a thing? You need to get on your feet and be strong and push through the pain because at this point in your life, your sons wellbeing is more important than yours. That's not even up for question. Don't do to your son what my father did to me. It's disgusting.

damn that is so tough. Having someone depend on you and you kill yourself is so hard. But you gotta understand how bad depression is. It doesn't care if you have kids. Do literally everything you can to try to beat depression for those kids/family. But sometimes there is no way to beat depression at all.

 

[midastic]

Because I don't want to fuck this up, death is a one shot. I live in a house with multiple people so the risk of me ending up as vegetable if I fuck this up is very high. It's all about having the right planning and knowing to do it at the best time.

 

[bigj75]

Because I don't want to fuck this up, death is a one shot. I live in a house with multiple people so the risk of me ending up as vegetable if I fuck this up is very high. It's all about having the right planning and knowing to do it at the best time.

so true.

 

[TracieB]

You have a son dependent on you? I'm sorry, but you have absolutely no right to kill yourself. None, whatsoever. My dad killed himself when I was 18 and needed him most and it has destroyed me and my mother. How could you even contemplate such a thing? You need to get on your feet and be strong and push through the pain because at this point in your life, your sons wellbeing is more important than yours. That's not even up for question. Don't do to your son what my father did to me. It's disgusting.

There's meant to be no judgement in this group. I think you need to read the rules again. I get that this happened to you so is very close to home but try and be a bit kinder in your replies.

 

[MistakesHappen]

You have all the information you need.
Why you still browser this site, instead just doing it!

Thinks not gone improve, somehow magicaly.

Bad luck...

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

Still waiting for my Nembutal to arrive.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

FEAR. As in F*ck Everything And Run.

 

[throwaway123]

I was thinking about this and to be honest I'm only here because of my fear. I was thinking about going this weekend but I just can't imagine myself jumping. Maybe I just have to take a risk. Being sectioned again.That scares me the most.

 

[Endthismisery]

Because I still need another bottle of n

Which is hard at the moment because I'm unemployed

And I need to fine the perfect place to end it all

As don't need a family member finding me

 

[Dani Paradox]

Fear. Or else I'd have been dead a year ago.. Took me awhile to get my method perfected. Hopefully will be gone this weekend.

 

[RacilyDank]

Recovering. If it wasn't for being well, albeit temporarily, I'd have been dead a long time ago no doubt.

 

[RacilyDank]

Although saying that, I haven't done it yet this time and every waking moment is a living hell, so maybe if I hadn't ever been well I'd still be alive and suffering all this time?

 

[wontbeheresoon]

You have all the information you need.
Why you still browser this site, instead just doing it!

Thinks not gone improve, somehow magicaly.

Honestly im only here because im an idiot and tried to od on the wrong stuff

 

[bigj75]

Honestly im only here because im an idiot and tried to od on the wrong stuff

hate to hear that but you can offer knowledge on things. That's what i do from my failed attempts. But I'll try again eventually.

 

[wontbeheresoon]

hate to hear that but you can offer knowledge on things. That's what i do from my failed attempts. But I'll try again eventually.

I tried to od on ranitidine i took like 72 pills didny even get a stomach ache

 

[useless]

I'm a lazy coward. I've practiced, but couldn't step down with the rope around my neck.

 

[RacilyDank]

I'm a lazy coward. I've practiced, but couldn't step down with the rope around my neck.

I don't know you but you're not a coward. It takes a lot of courage to keep living the way you feel that makes you want to ctb

 

[useless]

I don't know you but you're not a coward. It takes a lot of courage to keep living the way you feel that makes you want to ctb

I've failed twice already because I'm a worthless fucking mistake. It's not courage to be such a waste of air that you can't even off yourself correctly. I want to be fucking dead and I'm too scared to do anything.

 

[bigj75]

I've failed twice already because I'm a worthless fucking mistake. It's not courage to be such a waste of air that you can't even off yourself correctly. I want to be fucking dead and I'm too scared to do anything.

Do you know how hard it is to kill yourself? It's not something failing at would be considered calling someone worthless for. It's suppose to be scary.

 

[RacilyDank]

Do you know how hard it is to kill yourself? It's not something failing at would be considered calling someone worthless for. It's suppose to be scary.

Yep, what he said!

Do you think if it was easy there'd be so many of us on here? No, we'd all be dead

 

[windingdown]

I am too afraid (a) of pain in the process, and (b) of it not working. It also takes a little while to collect the necessary tools - as I read more and adjust my approach based on what I think will make me successful.

 

[Deadinside24]

When I figure it out I'll let you know.

 

[Final Escape]

You have all the information you need.
Why you still browser this site, instead just doing it!

Thinks not gone improve, somehow magicaly.

I'm not homeless and starving on street corner begging yet lol!

 

[Maravillosa]

Because I must be the caregiver of my bedridden elderly mother, probably till she dies -- which could be another 10 years, I suspect
Because I would like to successfully publish at least one novel before I die. I want to be remembered well by posterity.
Because I am still a bit afraid of ending up in Hell if I ctb -- even a protracted stay in Purgatory would not be fun, but at least the souls in Purgatory are on their way to Heaven.

 

[InaccessibleHour]

Because you apparently need sulfIDES to combine with HCL to get H2S. Noooo sulfate doesn't do it. Hell even normal sulfur doesn't which is strange.

I was supposed to be dead days ago .But nooo. These dumb delays are ughhh