Discussion Why are you done with your life

[foxdie]

I'm just done with existing. I feel like I should have died by now

 

[Breadbfra]

Does the ketamine help?

Did before the covid situation fucked up my mental health.

 

[cyberlordsumit]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/this-js-what-i-tell-myself.47102/

 

[GirlN]

Honestly there are many reasons, but lately the top reason might simply be that I am not happy.
Or rather, there are some moments where I am happy, but there are more moments when I am not.

 

[purplesmoothie]

I'm conserved, guilt and I have to stay at a mental health place. I just want my own place. But even if I wasn't in this situation I deal with feeling ugly which makes it almost impossible to get through life.

 

[Michaelwaev]

Rebuilt too many times in nightmare. Exausted from the deja vu shit i can path my way around falling off the griddle in my childhood and prelife. Mum was and still is eccentric friend keep preaching to me to me about not dying (eh i have my reasons for taking the way out). A big big mf journey.

 

[jrums]

PSSD, emotional numbness, insomnia, physical damage. All from SSRIs. And life was a bitch before this too. Enough is enough.

 

[wanttodie]

'm living a life I never happy hate my life sick of living and want my life to end

 

[icanhasnick]

Fundamentally, because I no longer think I can do anything meaningful anymore. I've fucked up all the best opportunities I had long ago and I can't fix it now, nor even get myself sufficiently interested in anything. During the last few years I had managed to keep myself entertained enough as to keep desperation at bay. But now with the world closing over the dumbest shit, I'm trapped, there's nowhere to go, nothing to do, I can't escape from myself anymore, and it has brought to light how fucked up I am, and how unbelievably lame this world thing turned out to be. I won't say that I had faith in humanity before this, but still they've managed to surprise me for worse, and how!

 

[TheQ22]

Did before the covid situation fucked up my mental health.

I wonder how many people who were feeling fine before it all are now struggling from the lockdown and uncertainty. It looks like it's taking off again in Europe as well.

Very weird times we live in.

 

[icanhasnick]

People accepted this whole lockdown and quarantine and restrictions bullshit, some even celebrated it as "Heey the government has a committee of infectologists and is locking us up to protect us!!" "Wow such scientific!". Now this is what we get. Misery, death. Hopefully the next generation will remember this and be less retarded.

 

[TheQ22]

People accepted this whole lockdown and quarantine and restrictions bullshit, some even celebrated it as "Heey the government has a committee of infectologists and is locking us up to protect us!!" "Wow such scientific!". Now this is what we get. Misery, death. Hopefully the next generation will remember this and be less retarded.

The more it goes on the more I can't help but feel it's deliberate to achieve some kind of change in society / the system.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Life sucks, drop out.

 

[icanhasnick]

Well yes, it may be expedient to think of it as something that was done "to society/the people" to achieve some sort of something. But society did this to itself. It's not like everyone would get shot for not accepting any of this shit. But people accepted, and not only accepted, they asked for it, they celebrated the introduction of this macabre scheme as something that was being done "for their own good". Even now, 6 months or so later, the program has massive support. Those of us who oppose it are called flatearthers or insensitive psychopaths who care about the economy and not the people themselves.

Turns out what the people perceive as for the people is the most antipeople stuff imaginable. After seeing this, I have no faith in society, evidently they can believe anything, and would simply jump from the cliff like decerebrated zombiefied lemmings if they were told that it's good for... for not catching the flu or something.

I seriously despise them all. I'm glad to be gone soon and not hearing ever again from them. I hope anyone who supported this will starve, they evidently do deserve it, but in so doing, also dragged many of us to their fate too.

 

[Breadbfra]

I wonder how many people who were feeling fine before it all are now struggling from the lockdown and uncertainty. It looks like it's taking off again in Europe as well.

Very weird times we live in.

My father started suffering from depression also. There's certainly some sort of genetics here involved. I don't blame lockdown at all, to be honest, even if the Italian one had been the strictest among all the world, second only to China's. But it surely fucked up many members of my family. I have one aunt who won't get out of her house since march. 80% of italians showed symptoms of anxiety and depression, suicides up to 50% etc

 

[shadow7891]

Loneliness, depression, unemployment, been through so much and it left me pretty messed up. Things are only going to get worse so why bother moving forward.

 

[SnowWhite]

I can't feel joy unless I'm on something. Anything constructive (like getting a job or socialising) just make me feel worse.

 

[Steve Vermont]

Because the world is quickly being taken over by people who think people like me (and a whole host of others) should die and who are willing to destroy everything in order to make that happen. Rather than be part of the destructive process myself, I'd rather opt out and not give them the satisfaction.

 

[icanhasnick]

But if they think people like you should die and you go ahead and kill yourself, aren't you giving them the satisfaction ?

 

[Steve Vermont]

I used to think that, but no. Their satisfaction is in the actual killing.The people who vote for them and pay them, they might be satisfied. But frankly? They are so evil — n the Hannah Arendt sense of the word — that they won't even think about it.

 

[icanhasnick]

The plan of the orcs as far as i can see is basically that people should die, and orcs take over. It doesn't even matter if they themselves wouldn't be viable then, no tumor ever said big enough.

 

[Steve Vermont]

Exactly.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Me too. Then it all came crashing down.

I can relate very much.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I lost the best thing I ever had through my own self deluded bullshit, believing things that weren't true, starting fights over imagined situations... it fucked my life up. I will never forgive myself.

also, he wants me to leave him alone. The only way I believe I can is if I'm dead.

 

[Marauder]

Its like I was born with chronic depression. Since early childhood I always feeled different. I was never really happy and I rejected all possible friends. Maybe the reason for that was mental abuse I was going throught. That destroyed my self-confidence and I became extremely introverted and started to hate myself. Im mentaly not able to do anything (finish uni, have gf, have sex, enjoy hobbies).
I also feel like my body is trying to destroy itself. Bipolar disorder, emotional disorder, autoimunity deseases, cystic acne all over back and chest that leaves really horrible deep scars for life. Its really ironic because scars all over my body are even more devalving my self confidence.
I went to therapist and psychiatrist and they have told me I cant "totaly change" my mentality and became confident and emotionally stable person and that I have to deal to live with it.
Problem is I really dont want to live with this mindset that cant be changed.

 

[catalepsy]

I'm sick and tired of feeling adrift and lost in a world full of people who have magical GPS units built into their brains. My brain must be an obsolete model.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I have a lot of reasons, but I'm only going to mention the major ones. First of all, I've been mentally unstable for years because of my dad being abusive when I was growing up. What made everything worse was watching my mom die from cancer and not being able to do anything about it. I also allowed toxic people into my life and burned bridges with good friends over stupid shit, so I feel a lot of guilt and it's very hard to trust anyone now.

I'm also sick of the world we live in and all of the corruption, greed, and abuse that happens everywhere. I can't fix it and the people who can don't give a shit and are part of the problem anyway. To be honest, the only good thing I have going is that I don't yet have any severe, chronic health issues, but yet I still want out because I know it's only a matter of time before that changes.

 

[Istanbulite]

I used to think that, but no. Their satisfaction is in the actual killing.The people who vote for them and pay them, they might be satisfied. But frankly? They are so evil — n the Hannah Arendt sense of the word — that they won't even think about it.

very true..

 

[FuneralCry]

Because I simply do not want to exist, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrifying. I have never wanted to live and I prefer the sound of non existence to any kind of life. To me, life is so pointless and unnecessary. There is absolutely nothing here for me in this world and I should have never existed in the first place.

 

[Advisor321]

Major depression
Adrenal illness that causes weight loss and hair loss
Love of my life left me
Due to failed attempt I have broken pelvis in several places

Now Im trying to create bitcoin account and perhaps order N
I'm also considering SN or SA, but I'm afraid of failed attempt again