Venting why am i so unloveable

[illbeinthegarage]

yes i get it im physically unattractive and my personality could be mistaken for that of a brick but does that really make me completely unloveable? the people i want to love me dont and wont and its not fair. im fucking done with it. im so sad and tired and lost and hurting. im in so much pain. why cant i be pretty enough or hot enough that people will love me? why cant i be funny enough or less mundane? ive tried everything to fix it but i cant think about myself without tearing up and wanting to rip the skin off my body. i hate myself so fucking much. so so fucking much. i dont want this body. i dont want this brain.

 

[purplesmoothie]

Same here :( I'm sorry... You're enough for me.

 

[LonelyNick]

For me it's the BPD

 

[Good4Nothing]

Same.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Same. My personality is brick, I am only funny when I am high and not even always.

 

[WornOutLife]

I bet there are many people who will consider you "loveable"
No matter your looks or ways.

In my case, I've decided to become unloveable and unreachable because of my constant CTB thoughts.

 

[illbeinthegarage]

For me it's the BPD

i have bpd so i feel you

 

[am1485]

My personality is like a brick too. I'm sorry your hurting I can relate

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I can almost completely relate and am really sorry you feel that way. I've come to realize that for me I'm not even always ready to accept everyone who might love me. I believe that if I want to have the right to be picky then so should everyone else. In fact, sometimes I even think less of people who might love me because I don't love myself enough.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I can almost completely relate and am really sorry you feel that way. I've come to realize that for me I'm not even always ready to accept everyone who might love me. I believe that if I want to have the right to be picky then so should everyone else. In fact, sometimes I even think less of people who might love me because I don't love myself enough.

True

 

[grungeCat]

Oh my god I relate so much. I am unlovable too! Even on this forum people seem to spurn me :DD I don't blame them of course since I am just too awkward. I can't help you to get through but I need you to know that I understand you.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Love and kindness to you

 

[greebo6]

yes i get it im physically unattractive and my personality could be mistaken for that of a brick but does that really make me completely unloveable? the people i want to love me dont and wont and its not fair. im fucking done with it. im so sad and tired and lost and hurting. im in so much pain. why cant i be pretty enough or hot enough that people will love me? why cant i be funny enough or less mundane? ive tried everything to fix it but i cant think about myself without tearing up and wanting to rip the skin off my body. i hate myself so fucking much. so so fucking much. i dont want this body. i dont want this brain.

I'm ugly (biggest reason). And I suppose I'm boring and quiet too. Also cynical now.
I would say those are the reasons I'm unlovable.
It does hurt. Sorry its so bad for you right now.

 

[Kbeau]

No words other than, I'm sorry for your situation and your pain and I wish better for you.

 

[BFishy]

I know exactly how you feel. I am friends as long as a woman needs something from me and then I'm a nothing. If I was an abuser, drug addict and lived off someone else than women would fall all over me. It seems like those are the only guys that get women around me.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

OP posted in October. And spelled unlovable wrong.

But whatever. They have the best username in this whole damn game.

 

[BFishy]

OP posted in October. And spelled unlovable wrong.

But whatever. They have the best username in this whole damn game.

Didn't even look at the date, my bad

 

[illbeinthegarage]

OP posted in October. And spelled unlovable wrong.

But whatever. They have the best username in this whole damn game.

ah shit spelling aint my strong point woops. but hell yeah i love everyone that appreciates my username
edit: did some googling and apparently you can spell it both ways?

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I'llbeinthegarage, l wish there was something l could do to take your pain away! Sending you Hugs

 

[Pookie]

I bet there are many people who will consider you "loveable"
No matter your looks or ways.

In my case, I've decided to become unloveable and unreachable because of my constant CTB thoughts.

You can try that, but you'll still be loved. True, unconditional love can't be switched on and off like a light switch.
Are you sure you are unlovable or do you only feel that way? I'm sure there are people who love you but due to your depression you just can't see it. We will love and support you here no matter what you look like. Besides, looks aren't everything. I've known good looking people who are rotten on the inside and they struggle to make friends/find partners.

 

[Pookie]

You can try that, but you'll still be loved. True, unconditional love can't be switched on and off like a light switch.
Are you sure you are unlovable or do you only feel that way? I'm sure there are people who love you but due to your depression you just can't see it. We will love and support you here no matter what you look like. Besides, looks aren't everything. I've known good looking people who are rotten on the inside and they struggle to make friends/find partners.

Ugh, some parts of this message was meant for the OP and now I can't edit or delete it. Sorry if I caused any confusion.