Venting Why am i like this?

[catbunny]

I feel empty, physically exhausted, mentally exhausted, anxious, depressed, and panic at the same time. I feel like I no longer know anything anymore. I used to remember how to communicate and act well. I knew what I wanted, what I needed, how to be good as person. But now, I don't know. I forgot how to act as a normal human being, I don't think I know how to feel right about a situation or anything. I act weird, like people that I hate. I think I lost sense of self. I dont understand basic logic and basic stuff of life skills. Sometimes I feel like I loosing myself and I just can't do anything about it. I dont know. Everything feels so hard to do and I dont even have the motivation to try. IDK I feel so lost. I want to just disappear rn. Every time I go outside, I wish a car hit me then I fucking die like how easy it is to die in the movie.

 

[HopelessScientist]

It is a mystery and a nightmare. It's why I hope to go into affective disorder research.

 

[fightclub17]

This is literally me... I don't know who I am, how to be, what I like, how to talk, how to act... I've been this way since my attempt. It's like my life split into 'before and after' and I don't know how to be me anymore.

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

I feel you. I often look back at my own actions and i can't figure out why i said or did something the way i did. my actions ignore all rational thought.

I don't even know who i am. I think i lost all interest to live so young, that i never really developed into a whole person or found my passion or anything.

I'm tired of being my own worst enemy. I wish this fucker, aka myself, would just die already.