Who's Actually Serious?

[Goodgirlryeo101]

My partner has completely ruined my life. The person I wanted to be with me in my very bad and very good times was with me in my good and left me in my bad.
Every day is like a stone in my life

No I don't think he ruined your life by leaving you unless there is more to what happened to you??… I can understand the hurt when a partner leaves you when you are in a bad situation. However, I think ruining your life is will be too much unless if he did something else than leaving you ?

Please ignore, unfollow, and do not read my posts. Thanks.

I wasn't talking to you.

 

[20ClownRules]

Still thinking it through...
...My decision remains undecided.
However, I still have these thoughts running through my head.
A strong incentive to do it, but somehow, never finding the tools to, the courage to, nor the money.
Sad situation I'm in. My parents in and out of the house... ...and being a legal adult.
Shit is rough, and going through this is even more so.

 

[greg2000]

Next Saturday.
I am in a mess of debt.
My wife is insisting on divorcing me (I had a 2 year long affair).
I just got an $18k tax bill I have no way to pay.
If I catch the bus, my wife will get the life insurance money. She can pay off the house and debt and continue to provide a nice comfortable life for my daughter who means more to me than anything else.
If I were to try to stay and work 12 hour days everyday- I still would t be able to pay the bills and the debt and the lawyer fees and my tax bill. If I ctb- no one has to worry about those things anymore. I can stop hurting people and I can stop hurting. There is no benefit to me staying around.
Wife and daughter will go out of town next week to see mother in law. I will do hydrogen sulfide in the car far away from the house as they board their flight from there to here. That way I won't ruin their visit and they should be met by someone to tell the news.
I have told her I'm going to do it soon. She seems unconcerned. I told the girl I had an affair with- and she blocked my number shortly after. Seems as though everyone is tired of me and wants me gone. So that is what I'll do. Saturday. 6pm EST.
Don't give up on people- it means more than you know.

 

[empty]

When I first joined this site, I was pretty actively suicidal and close to doing it. But now I'm much more hopeful about the future and have a much more positive outlook on life in general. I still have suicidal thoughts, but I don't think I'll ctb anytime soon. But if things get bad enough, I might. I like knowing that it'll always be an option.

 

[leavingsoon99]

When I first joined this site, I was pretty actively suicidal and close to doing it. But now I'm much more hopeful about the future and have a much more positive outlook on life in general. I still have suicidal thoughts, but I don't think I'll ctb anytime soon. But if things get bad enough, I might. I like knowing that it'll always be an option.

That's good that you're getting clarity on what you really want. That's the TRULY important thing. I'm happy for you and wish you good fortune and further clarity on your continued journey.

 

[Failure21]

I'd say I am considering I've tried hanging myself twice and I'm only alive because I'm incompetent and cant tie a knot. As soon as I get a sure proof method that won't fail barring some unfortunate miracle, I'm out