No crush,I've lost all interest in relationships.I don't have the mental capacity to love anyone properly or being in a steady relationship.All I can bring is destruction,just like Rustin in True Detective said,I'm just not good for people, that it's not good for them to be around me. I wear them down. They get unhappy.
I still feel guilt over my last gf.she's such a sweet person,she waited till the exact time of 0:00 to say happy birthday to me,she drove 3 hours to another city just to buy food I enjoy. Luckily I broke up with her before I could do more damage.The guilt is tremendous,it's the last straw,I'm better to be alone so I won't hurt anyone