who or what do you guys live for ?

[Deleted member 15256]

My son. And I am ruining his future.
He will be better without me

 

[LONE WOLF.]

My Dog! He's my best and only friend!

 

[hellodarkness]

I will preface to say that I know everyone thinks their kids are the best, very few of us are right. But you know, I'm right because my kids are amazing and the only reason I didn't jump in June when I had a beautiful window

 

[regular john]

It's nice I'm not alone in this, I do it too. I read r/suicidebereavement and vent to friends if I need to so I can keep myself from doing anything rash, I'll utterly crush my parents and my little sister and I don't have the mental fortitude fully accept that or in the afterlife (if I can feel guilty in the afterlife, I'm sure to feel guilty even though I'll watch over my family 24/7, I'll definitely be those souls have hover over the family instead of moving on). My family and little sister are everything to me so I prefer to take my method immediately if there were a freak accident where I'm the only one left.

OP, I'm sorry you're in this situation. I'm amazed you're 50 because I don't think I'm strong enough to live to that age. Do you have any hobbies that keep you busy?

I liked playing musical instruments but after years of trying I realized I don't have any talent for this.

 

[Anathema]

Parents, pets. That's it really. Once they're gone I'm gone.

 

[Bigpink]

 

[blackwidow92]

My family I suppose. But it's getting harder and harder to hold on even for them. Why should I have to live a life of misery just to protect them from getting hurt. I know it sounds selfish but I just haven't got anything much left in me, it's a task to even take care of my personal hygiene these days.

 

[orbroots]

I'm pretty indecisive. I want to live long enough to make a decision. I want to feel balanced, not indifferent.

 

[PursuitofWonder]

It sounds sad but the only things I enjoy or stay alive to enjoy are drugs and media. A good song or a movie plus a substance makes me forget that I want to die for a couple hours.

 

[sweater]

I am living exclusively for my cat, in all honesty. And even then, I know when I go I have someone to care for her that will probably do a better job than me.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I live for feeling good.

although I've never been able to attain it due to physical circumstances and pre-existing limitations.

if you told me I was going to ctb oneday, I would have thought you are insane.

 

[astronaut]

Im just living to se what life have to offer from Day to Day, Drugs, and growth. Im growing spiritualy and I belive in life after death, trying to do Good cuz I belive in Karma and Reincarnation and I belive in God,I Will suffer for all the bad things I done, so im trying to do Good. But sometimes death seems soo peacefull. I tried suicide And im glad I did not succed. There is no coming back from that. I belive there is life in other planets and our consciousnes can take on any Body, human animal or Aliens from other planets, consciousnes has No limits. Energy cant be destroy only transformed. Where did we come from ? Where are we headed ? Who started all this ? The system of the world is Broken, only chasing money and fame buying stuff they dont need and so it goes. This world could be better but the leaders of the world are psycopath, they dont Care about us. But yeah I belive in life after death and some of My traits Will follw me to the next life, be it here or some other place in the cosmos. I like to Long walks but i dont really see any reason for Keep going but om gues im afriad of death. The kosmos has been going on for a long time. We are part of the universe. Im 28 btw.

 

[muffin222]

Technically, I'm in the midst of attempting "recovery", so I force myself to muscle through everyday to the best of my capabilities. I still yearn to die just as much, if not more, than I did prior to shifting from limbo into recovery. So, I don't know lately

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Technically, I'm in the midst of attempting "recovery", so I force myself to muscle through everyday to the best of my capabilities. I still yearn to die just as much, if not more, than I did prior to shifting from limbo into recovery. So, I don't know lately

Oh dear, you too! It needs a lot of faith I think to push past this

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Right now I only live for the opportunity to consume more entertainment. I'm stupid enough to still get excited by all kinds of movies, tv shows, and video games so as long as there are some of those left that I want to experience I might still want to be around though I will definitely try to ctb when I am 28. That is, as long as I don't get a significant other to live for. I definitely don't currently have any such people I'd want to live for but at least I don't think I ever will so that's one less thing to worry about.

 

[JustDie]

currently? Because I can. Although I still have the depression that brought me here a few years ago, I have learnt that is just how it is and there is so much random bullshit I can do in life that I want to. The only example that I can think of for this that does not sound degrading is that I found a BF and why not? Let's see what love is, let's see what I can do, and let's see how it ends up failing.

 

[fred farkle]

I really feel you, bro.
My dad is everything to me!

than stay with him and bring him some happiness! me,i am all alone my wife died and thats why i am here.

 

[IWantToSleep]

I don't know, no particular reason. I'm very confused.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

My son. And I am ruining his future.
He will be better without me

SAMI, Are you sure? I haven't seen my dad in 30 year's and l really miss him, knowing l'll never see him again and tell him all the things l want to say to him is tearing me up inside, there's a real painful ache in my heart and there's nothing I can do about it!!! I'd give the last drop of blood in my body and the rest of my existence bar 24-hours just to spend one day with him to try and rebuild the bridges l burned down 3 decades ago!

 

[Deleted member 15256]

SAMI, Are you sure? I haven't seen my dad in 30 year's and l really miss him, knowing l'll never see him again and tell him all the things l want to say to him is tearing me up inside, there's a real painful ache in my heart and there's nothing I can do about it!!! I'd give the last drop of blood in my body and the rest of my existence bar 24-hours just to spend one day with him to try and rebuild the bridges l burned down 3 decades ago!

You're probably right.
I just can't fight this feeling that I am ruining his life the same way I am ruining mine

 

[newave3]

I only live to sleep.

 

[muffin222]

Oh dear, you too! It needs a lot of faith I think to push past this

I think so, too. A lot of faith in the unknown and a lot of grit to press forward through the pain believing that something brighter lies on the horizon, even if you can't see it yet. It's a huge hurdle to surmount, for sure

 

[SadJessu]

I am 50. Never had job career. I have no family. Never had a girlfriend. I am on my own. Unemployed at the moment . No education. Only high school. I don't think it makes sense to continue living. Can you tell me guys what you live for ?

I'm so sorry to hear this, I don't know what to say. As far as I'm concerned, I live for my partner. He's an amazing, understanding person whom I love with everything I have. Thing is, I'm a pretty shitty person. I deal with a lot of mental illness that probably make life very difficult for him. I feel like he deserves better.

 

[Darkhaven]

My 2 cats.

 

[Frauw]

Myself

 

[Weightoftheworld]

My kids.
It was also my dad too but he passed last month so if it wasn't for them I would've CTB right after his funeral.

 

[mimiopo22]

for nothing.

 

[Algo5]

I've been through no end of hurt and humiliation through the years...and all for my mum. Sadly, I can feel our relationship deteriorating, as I increasingly resent her standing in the way of me being able to at least try to find piece in the afterlife (if it exists, which I somewhat doubt).

 

[Symbiote]

Trying to live for myself now. If I can't do that, then I might as well pull the trigger.