Venting Who I should have been

[Polyxo]

My sibling makes six figures, has two dogs, lives in comfort with her husband.

We both had the same opportunities. I excelled in school until I flunked in junior year college and lost all my scholarships. Now at 24 I'm still fully dependent on my parents. My parents sacrificed so much for me and they still are now, even as they approach retirement age with no savings. I'm a disappointment.

I literally cannot find any reason not to ctb. Losing my life would be to everyone's benefit.

 

[pretentioussuika]

I stood by my ex through their toughest times, even took on all the debt related to that, and now they are living the perfect life they promised me and never delivered on while I'm rotting away.

 

[soon4good]

life really always finds a way to fuck you somehow

 

[TearStainedSunsets]

My sibling makes six figures, has two dogs, lives in comfort with her husband.

We both had the same opportunities. I excelled in school until I flunked in junior year college and lost all my scholarships. Now at 24 I'm still fully dependent on my parents. My parents sacrificed so much for me and they still are now, even as they approach retirement age with no savings. I'm a disappointment.

I literally cannot find any reason not to ctb. Losing my life would be to everyone's benefit.

I relate to this a lot. I feel like ive failed everyone every single day. I barely have anyone left that I feel like i needed to impress anyway though...they all left or died. I'm stuck, terrified and not smart enough to figure it out on my own but no one will help and the people who have tried havent been helpful. I wish I could just quit...