who here is a teenager and/or lives with their parents?

[dolphin]

I live with my mom and I find it sickening that I am planning my suicide so diligently over the next few weeks and she has no idea :( I'm very close with mom and this is destroying me. Sometimes I almost want to tell her but I can't not go through with this ...

Is it hard planning to CTB when you are surrounded by your family??? God this so terrible ...

 

[snowman626]

I live with my mother but I dont plan to CTB till she dies. But if I were to leave her behind I would give her a bottle of N or SN so she would have a way out if the pain of losing a child becomes unbearable.

 

[Fadingfast]

I'm no teenager but I did just move back in with my parents. I have horrible timing and I broke down on Mother's Day and told her that I want to ctb. Now everyday she asks how I feel and all I can say is " The same.". Letting her know was the hardest part but at least she won't be shocked when I finally do it.

 

[dolphin]

I'm no teenager but I did just move back in with my parents. I have horrible timing and I broke down on Mother's Day and told her that I want to ctb. Now everyday she asks how I feel and all I can say is " The same.". Letting her know was the hardest part but at least she won't be shocked when I finally do it.

My mom knows that I have been struggling for a long time but I know that it will still come as a shock :(

I live with my mother but I dont plan to CTB till she dies. But if I were to leave her behind I would give her a bottle of N or SN so she would have a way out if the pain of losing a child becomes unbearable.

I was almost considering the same thing but I was thinking that it might be ... offensive?

 

[Donewitheverything]

My mom knows I've been suicidal for years. She's been keeping a close eye on me since I've decided to vacation with her this summer and that I'll be living with her next year; technically, I'm living with my ex until I can move on campus at the moment. Though, yes, it would be hard to ctb around her for many reasons. The guilt of her finding my lifeless corpse if I succeed. The fact I'd risk becoming a vegetable if she had to opportunity to stop me. She's pretty much a house person so I wouldn't have any opportunity, even if I disregarded all my concerns.

 

[JadedGray]

I'm not a teenager although I feel like one mentally, unfortunately. I live with my mother. She already knows about my suicidal ideation, so I don't have to hide it. It feels like a weight has been lifted, since I don't have to hide my true intentions among secrecy and pretend that things are okay when they are far from it. I also don't have to live with the guilt of pretending, while knowing that I'm going to CTB. I sympathize with those who have to. It must be horrible having to live a double life.

 

[sunny.sativa]

I moved out to live in a specialist facility at age 18, I'm now almost 20 and I moved back with my folks about five months ago.

They walked in on me once and I know now that I'd ever do that to them again.

 

[dolphin]

I moved out to live in a specialist facility at age 18, I'm now almost 20 and I moved back with my folks about five months ago.

They walked in on me once and I know now that I'd ever do that to them again.

They walked in on you attempting?

 

[sunny.sativa]

They walked in on you attempting?

Indeed. My mom had to remove the scarf from around my neck, I had just barely started to black out and was losing consciousness as she walked in and screamed WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU etc y'know.

 

[dolphin]

Indeed. My mom had to remove the scarf from around my neck, I had just barely started to black out and was losing consciousness as she walked in and screamed WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU etc y'know.

oh dear

 

[intheweeds]

Not a teenager but do live at home and have my entire life. Which is kinda sad considering I'm 32.

Mental illness pretty much stole my life from me. I've been consistently seeing doctors and psychiatrists since the age of 16. Been seeing my current doctor for nearly 10 years now. Hospitalized in a mental hospital 3 times. And I've lost count of how many medications I've been on. All of that and little to show for it.

With that said my mother very clearly knows of my issues. I'm having a super difficult time trying to decide if I should stay and help her as she gets older or do I catch the bus? I'm sure she'd absolutely understand, but who knows. Staying doesn't sound like much of a life.

 

[Chalken]

I'm to be 18 in June and I live with my parents. I plan to CTB in a park nearby. As much as I want to do it at home, I don't want my parents to find my body and traumatize them even more.

 

[Burbank]

I have a question to people that have talked about being suicidal to their parents.

How did that topic come on or how did you talk to them about it?

My mom is the kind to disregard/not take it seriously. She doesn't even know i'm depressed and thinks i'm just lazy and dull. I feel like i need to talk to her about it, but it's hard, especially because i'm not very close to her.

 

[JadedGray]

I have a question to people that have talked about being suicidal to their parents.

How did that topic come on or how did you talk to them about it?

My mom is the kind to disregard/not take it seriously. She doesn't even know i'm depressed and thinks i'm just lazy and dull. I feel like i need to talk to her about it, but it's hard, especially because i'm not very close to her.

My mother found out when I was a teenager, by reading my diary. I think she already had a feeling (maternal instinct), which is why she was probably reading it in the first place. After that, there was no need to talk about it. She knows that I'm depressed and suicidal all the time from my demeanor and past attempts.

 

[Tortured_empath]

I would give her a bottle of N or SN so she would have a way out if the pain of losing a child becomes unbearable.

Jesus, man...

 

[Anchors]

I live with my mum. She knows I've had suicidal thoughts because I told her. I don't want to hurt her but I think (hope) she would understand if it came to it. I'm supposed to start uni soon so I'm postponing until at least then, since I don't want to ctb at home and in the meantime I still need to get my materials together.

 

[Taylor]

I live with my mother but I dont plan to CTB till she dies. But if I were to leave her behind I would give her a bottle of N or SN so she would have a way out if the pain of losing a child becomes unbearable.

This is what I'm currently in the process of taking care of believe it or not, otherwise I would've been gone already most likely. My dad is in the same position as me right now, and it's like we telepathically know what I'm doing for us, we don't even have to talk about it lol.

My mom on the other hand refuses to believe this is reality for me, and seems to just convince herself that I'll just snap out of it one day. A more than common response and defense mechanism for any mother I would imagine. I'm planning on leaving a couple bottles of N and anti-emetics for her with exact instructions as well, because she always told me if anything ever happened to me, she'd be right behind me. I don't doubt her in the slightest, and it would kill me to know I didn't give her that option.

 

[Monster]

My parents think I would never actually kill myself. They don't know I'm planning shit. Also it always makes me think when I'm in public with people around me and I'm looking up methods and other suicide shit right beside them on my phone, haha.

 

[Mort]

I am no teenager i am 45 infact :| and live with my folks lots my job of 28 years lost every thing in one go my folks told me i can go back home and dont have worry about moving out . If it was not for that i would of have ctb they and then but bin home for six months i feel like a burden on them now . And with my health going down the toilet looks like then end up looking after me like a big baby they in they 70s and no way i am putting them thought that shit soon be time to call it a day. Be a relief to them any way think they seen me most of my life as bit of a failure not met they standards low they may be but still did not mert meet them how sad that . Best i be gone me thinks they can have they life back best thing i can give them :)

 

[Taylor]

My parents think I would never actually kill myself. They don't know I'm planning shit. Also it always makes me think when I'm in public with people around me and I'm looking up methods and other suicide shit right beside them on my phone, haha.

I've definitely had to tilt the screen of my phone away a few times already, awkward isn't it lol.

 

[Kuris]

I'm 24 and still live with my parents and my biggest fear is them finding me after I'm gone and be traumatized by it.

 

[Taylor]

I'm 24 and still live with my parents and my biggest fear is them finding me after I'm gone and be traumatized by it.

That's why a lot of people book a hotel for a night or two and do it there, myself included.

 

[Kuris]

That's why a lot of people book a hotel for a night or two and do it there, myself included.

I know but I fear that there won't be a good place to do partial hanging there. I have thought about doing it outdoors instead but I don't want to be too far from the road so that I won't be too much of a burden to carry out of there but maybe I just I'm just overthinking this as I do everything.

 

[Taylor]

I know but I fear that there won't be a good place to do partial hanging there. I have thought about doing it outdoors instead but I don't want to be too far from the road so that I won't be too much of a burden to carry out of there but maybe I just I'm just overthinking this as I do everything.

Oh sorry, I was thinking you had N or something haha. I forget that not everyone here chooses that method. It's definitely one of the most popular by far, for how practical it is. Didn't Chester Bennington hang himself in a hotel though? Or wait that might have been Chris Cornell I'm thinking of. It certainly seems possible.

 

[Monster]

I've definitely had to tilt the screen of my phone away a few times already, awkward isn't it lol.

Most aren't paying attention and don't give a shit lol. In public anyway. At home I keep it on my phone and that's easy to turn away and it's too small for my parents to read anyway haha.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I live with my parents as well but I'm a 21 year old low life. Most of the problems I caused for myself. Can't wait to die soon.

 

[Taylor]

I live with my parents as well but I'm a 21 year old low life. Most of the problems I caused for myself. Can't wait to die soon.

Hey bud I'm 25, and was a potential Navy SEAL candidate at 19-20. Now look where I am. We never know what life will throw at us, it's best to not take it personally and just enjoy it for what it is. We all have the same destination in the end anyway.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Hey bud I'm 25, and was a potential Navy SEAL candidate at 19-20. We never know what life will throw at us, it's best to not take it personally and just enjoy it for what is. We all have the same destination in the end anyway.

Honestly my life is going to be this way for decades on end probably until I die so I'm going to borrow my household's gun for the first and last time and take myself out of this place. I'm not sad over it really. I don't relate or feel anything for Earth life one bit.

 

[Taylor]

Honestly my life is going to be this way for decades on end probably until I die so I'm going to borrow my household's gun for the first and last time and take myself out of this place. I'm not sad over it really. I don't relate or feel anything for Earth life one bit.

I've come to that realization as well. There's nothing wrong with defeat. We're only mortal humans, and death and decline is just a natural part of this earthly life unfortunately. It's inevitable, and I'm right there with you.

I did genuinely love my life at one point though, and I still love this creation. Despite all the death and suffering that it is currently cursed by, I still find it beautiful. That's why I put my faith in Jesus, so that I may have that again one day, permanently.

 

[21Neberg]

I'm to be 18 in June and I live with my parents. I plan to CTB in a park nearby. As much as I want to do it at home, I don't want my parents to find my body and traumatize them even more.

CTB in the park? Sounds nice, but what's your method?