Many children. If in abusive situations.
seekingoblivion
Arcanist
- Dec 11, 2018
- 454
I can't imagine what it must be like to go through that loss, mate. I'm sorry.
As for myself I've always been a miserable sack. I've known I'm not exactly the most valuable creature for as long as I can remember.
As for myself I've always been a miserable sack. I've known I'm not exactly the most valuable creature for as long as I can remember.
Most of my life I wasn't happy but at least I was functional. Now I am not happy nor functional.
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
Lush_nova
Self Destruct Activated
- May 16, 2019
- 105
I wasn't.... beaten daily by my mother and sexually abused from the age of 6 until 14.... I was a miserable child, no friends nothing
I had terrible social anxiety most of my life which crippled me. But I was working, leaving on my own. I had very well paid job in IT.
Now I am not even able to do my job because of constant mental fog.
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
I am worrying because I am in constant depression for 2 years straight which robes me from relationships, work and normal life.
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
I always knew my death will be at my own hands. Wish for it. Prepare for it my whole life. Happiness.. I never really understand what that word meant. Was I happy? I cant answer that. All I am sure is that only death can set me free. If I cannot live comfortably in solitude. Then I would rather die than being force to live my life surrounded by people.
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
Robbyna
Student
- Mar 6, 2019
- 182
My drugs? Jk. Long story short I had a good job and a few good friends, but I was still very depressed. I started doing drugs which quickly escalated to a daily habit now I'm hanging on to my job by a thread and all my friends hate me. I've gained 40lbs and feel like garbage and am 100x more depressed than before. I had a psychotic break due to the drugs and am now on a short list of psychiatric drugs which helped me gain weight. I've also been overeating due to financial stress due to my hospital stays. I was suicidal before andI should've just CTB when my life was in order.
I was so happy. Right up until the start of this year. Now it feels like a layer of the world has been pulled away and all I can see is sadness and unbearabke pain in my soul.
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
^^ Her husband died in a motorcycle accident. She has posted about it here. You can find an user's posts by clicking on their name in a topic, then clicking on their name again in the small window that opens, and going to Postings.
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Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
I felt the same way. I couldn't afford to just quit my job, so I could be alone, work from home or such, rent a flat in a quiet village. If I could've done that, I would have been happy. I failed because I didn't have any money. Then I continued living surrounded by people I don't like, and those people ruined my life. I can never escape and just live alone, and now it's too late. I now have medical issues that cause constant pain, from ruining my body because of other people's bad advice. If people were truly free to live anywhere and work anywhere, they could be happy. But we are not free. Everyone is a corporate slave, either working or buying things, and they don't even realise it.
Yes we are not free and wont be. I will no longer play their games. All these people. All they look forward to in life is eat eat buy buy and expecting someone else to entertain them. Make them feel good and happy. Because they too are being force to do the things they dont like or want to but had to in order to survive. They gave up everything just to live another day. Thats not living. Not for me. If I cannot have what I want why bother staying or playing along? I dont need this.
