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inneedrelief

inneedrelief

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Jan 15, 2024
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I feel sad. im on meds and the dose is apparently too high for me, my prolactin is high. On these meds I dont feel a shift. I want to feel relaxed but I just feel like a wired robot. I wish I could come off them. I can...but ill just end up getting back on it because of my suffering
 
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Eclypser

Eclypser

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Dec 12, 2025
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I feel sad. im on meds and the dose is apparently too high for me, my prolactin is high. On these meds I dont feel a shift. I want to feel relaxed but I just feel like a wired robot. I wish I could come off them. I can...but ill just end up getting back on it because of my suffering
Hi! Two years ago, I was in your same situation. There was no way to relax. From sudden hypertension, I progressed to severe stress, anxiety, panic attacks, and finally I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I can tell you that finding the right treatment was difficult, but even harder was finding the dosage that allowed for a certain stability. Just as I seemed to have recovered, I began to deal with the side effects, which I prefer not to list, but I assure you I'm not exaggerating when I call them "embarrassing" or "disabling." So I feel I can only advise you to be extremely careful. In a fragile period, it's easy to leave things up to the doctors, which is absolutely right, of course, but dig deeper, ask questions, and try to consult more than one specialist. These are mistakes I've made myself. Don't ignore the signs and listen to your instincts. For the problem you mentioned, if I were you, I would explore the options of new esketamine-based therapies. I'm suffering too, more than before. I hope you find the strength to react, at least to ask for help. Don't wait and don't seek support from substances of abuse, which seemingly solve the problem but actually take everything away from you.
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

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May 28, 2024
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I feel sad in an existential sort of way. Every new year I'm reminded that I'm closer to losing my parents and my cats and everything I've ever loved.
 
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inneedrelief

Student
Jan 15, 2024
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I feel sad in an existential sort of way. Every new year I'm reminded that I'm closer to losing my parents and my cats and everything I've ever loved.
Really? Why is that going to happen
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

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Dec 1, 2025
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In the first course of treatment I was very sad and my mental state gotten even worse. When I changed treatment plan, it got better and I came off meds. Felt normal until autumn, but suddenly it has come back again.
 
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maylurker

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Dec 28, 2025
281
i dont know i feel nothing just anxiety in the background
 

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