Help Which option of CTB

[zoyam]

So my mom passed away few months ago.
And I've been thinking about joining her ever since.

I decided to buy Celphos(aluminum sulfide) and end this endless pain. I know it is very painful but I really need to succeed.

So I am living with both my grandparents. And one of them is traveling next Friday at 2 pm and will return on saturday night.

So I have 2 choices and I need some opinions:

1- take the celphos pills at 1am on saturday while my grandmother sleeping. But I will be taking it in my room which is across of hers. I don't know if I would make sounds because of the pain. But I know that she never wakes me up till I wake up all alone. I even wake up at 4 pm sometimes.

2- take the celphos pills also at 1 am on saturday but instead of my room I will sneak downstairs to the garden where we have a closed office and if i made sounds she won't hear me . And I will have from 1am to 4 pm of the next day till someone finds me. Which will take time because I will be downstairs.

So which option is better?
And also Is this ctb method guaranteed to work or will it fail?

 

[Anonymoussn]

So from what I can gather from Google, Celphos is Aluminium Phosphide. Here are a couple of case studies of people who have ingested this.

Aluminium phosphide poisoning

We describe a lethal poisoning in a healthy woman caused by deliberate ingestion of aluminium phosphide (AlP), a pesticide used to kill rodents and insects. Toxicity of AlP and review of cases reported to the National Poisons Information Service (London) ...

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

Fatal aluminium phosphide poisoning

Aluminium phosphide (AlP) is a cheap solid fumigant and a highly toxic pesticide which is commonly used for grain preservation. AlP has currently aroused interest with a rising number of cases in the past four decades due to increased use for agricultural ...

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

I can't pretend to be an expert on this, because I have only heard of this after reading your posts. But if you want my opinion based on these studies linked above, which I have just read, this seems like a very painful and drawn out way to go. Hemorrages, diarhoea, pain. No thanks.

I think that if most people were in a house with other people, or even in the garden, they would be in enough discomfort from this that they would either deliberately seek help, or would be heard from the discomfort/pain.

In the first article I linked, the person died after 36 hours. This sounds like an incredibly painful and traumatic way to go out.

Unless you know something I don't, please reconsider this.

 

[zoyam]

So from what I can gather from Google, Celphos is Aluminium Phosphide. Here are a couple of case studies of people who have ingested this.
The only thing I know is that each tablet is 3g and it releases 1g of phosphine gas in the body and the body can't handle 500 mg of this gas.

I didn't read this study before but I read all of the accidents that happened in my country due to this poison and none of them survived.

They died in maximum 2 hours when they arrived in a hospital and they couldn't save them.

I really don't have any other option of ctb.
I thought of jumping from the 8th floor but it would be scandalous.

And hanging: could not find something at home where I can stick the rope.

If you have other easy methods I am open for it

Aluminium phosphide poisoning

We describe a lethal poisoning in a healthy woman caused by deliberate ingestion of aluminium phosphide (AlP), a pesticide used to kill rodents and insects. Toxicity of AlP and review of cases reported to the National Poisons Information Service (London) ...

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

Fatal aluminium phosphide poisoning

Aluminium phosphide (AlP) is a cheap solid fumigant and a highly toxic pesticide which is commonly used for grain preservation. AlP has currently aroused interest with a rising number of cases in the past four decades due to increased use for agricultural ...

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

I can't pretend to be an expert on this, because I have only heard of this after reading your posts. But if you want my opinion based on these studies linked above, which I have just read, this seems like a very painful and drawn out way to go. Hemorrages, diarhoea, pain. No thanks.

I think that if most people were in a house with other people, or even in the garden, they would be in enough discomfort from this that they would either deliberately seek help, or would be heard from the discomfort/pain.

In the first article I linked, the person died after 36 hours. This sounds like an incredibly painful and traumatic way to go out.

Unless you know something I don't, please reconsider this.

I didn't read this study before but I read all of the accidents that happened in my country due to this poison and none of them survived.

They died in maximum 2 hours when they arrived in a hospital and they couldn't save them.

I really don't have any other option of ctb.
I thought of jumping from the 8th floor but it would be scandalous.

And hanging: could not find something at home where I can stick the rope.