where'd you get your username from?

[landmine]

i consider myself a landmine

 

[-nobodyknows-]

"Nobody knows" that I am feeling this way

 

[Namelesa]

I didn't know what to name myself so I just got the word "Nameless" but replaced the last letter with an "a" to make it sound more feminine and to make it some what unique compared to others with names similar to mine.

 

[nomoredolor]

Mine is pretty self explanatory

Fun fact @magicgranola now deceased, is because his favorite food was Peanut Butter Nature Valley granola bars and it was the last thing he ate before he died. I miss him so much I can't wait to join him in death

Anna

 

[foreverstardust]

the elements that make our bodies once came from the stars

 

[quietism]

quietism is the belief that the primary value of philosophy is therapeutic. I extend the definition a bit further to encompass psychology, social science, feminism too. No one with power for positive change is ever going to take me seriously no matter what I think, unless I compromise my principles and maliciously hurt others; that is the nature of human politics. But it can be a bit fun to daydream about an impossible life. So I consider the word a defining trait about myself that I accept its fate honestly.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

Lived experience thus, Life'sa6itch

 

[Prism]

I just picked a word I liked that had nothing to do with any of my typical usernames.

 

[killingmyselfcore]

how i came up with my user is kinda stupid,, but yea
so in october when i was going to attempt to ctb again i made an account but forgot about this website, i kind of only thought users talk about suicide here (obviously) but like to the extent of nothing else so thats where the "killingmyself" part is from ()
the core is like a joke when you "make" something an aesthetic,, idk its hard to explain so basically killingmyselfcore yayaya
holy yapfest sorry,,

 

[Life]

I think human life is very percious in all kinds of aspects. I'm very assumed by our biology, and more importantly our fragility. There is no second chance when you die. Every human has a unqiue and interesting life with their own ups and downs,

 

[SVEN]

I am Sven.

 

[Apathy79]

Dominant emotion when I signed up + birth year

 

[mikgazer6]

it's the name of an album that has done more for me than anything else

 

[carousille]

i love carousels and modified it slightly to something that wouldn't be taken/i like that it includes 'ill' in there

 

[NonEssential]

I just don't value myself. Wanted to name myself NotImportant, but that was taken. This is just an alternative version of that.

 

[NitrogenAfternoon]

A song by the Silver Jews titled "The Wild Kindness" where the singer, Dave Berman says "I wrote a letter to a wild flower, on a classic nitrogen afternoon" it always reminded me of my intentions of writing a suicide letter I was planning to send to an old love of mine before I tried with the N2 method. I love that line so much.

Dave actually ctb'd and his album he released with Purple Mountains before doing so is the real suicide letter, but I will always appreciate "The Wild Kindness"

The lyrics that follow on the opening line even remind me of my new intentions of SN and going to a hotel room to do it and the line of "I'm only perfect in an empty room" and more lyrics like "the year ends in the next room".. he even mentions the word "motel" in it and

A lot of suicidal undertones in that song that I relate to and I love it. It's based on my initial method and that song.

 

[cme-dme]

It's my actual online handle but with most of the letters removed. Very privacy friendly I know :) It rolls off the tongue pretty nicely though!

 

[party?]

Never watched drag race but did enjoy videos of a few drag queens here and there and adore delano's "PARTY!!!" really stuck with me. Don't quite know what it is but there's something so comforting about the confidence these queens carry.

 

[lonely day]

Mine is from one of my favorite songs.

 

[Hojag]

Okay, so...

I needed a nick that no one who knows me IRL (loved ones, actually) would associate with me. My nick is a "toddler/drunk" spelling of the name Rorschach, the psychiatrist who introduced the famous ink blot test.

It's also because I like Watchmen and the mask is cool as hell.

I mean, if by chance my brother browses this site (I don't think he would), tgen he would know that it's me!

*I hate Tor. Slow shit, keep blending my replies. It's the third time I'm writing it.

 

[Unhumanly.]

Unhumanly taken from the words inhumanely, to me it speak for the experience of not being perceived or treated as a human
uncategorized anomaly, unfitting for living, something that couldn't contribute to the world and soon the world also not so long will cast it out

 

[domedune]

Time flashes quickly through your sight,
Yet every second feels so tight.
You drift away, so vast, so high,
But time won't stop to say goodbye.

Love this poem!

(My username. Well, I was thinking that I liked how dunes looked at the time. It felt "me" but not "me" enough for me to be recognized. My old avatar was a dome dune.)

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I was building a life of serenity, until 2024 came and shattered everything with bipolar disorder and a divorce.

 

[domedune]

A song by the Silver Jews titled "The Wild Kindness" where the singer, Dave Berman says "I wrote a letter to a wild flower, on a classic nitrogen afternoon" it always reminded me of my intentions of writing a suicide letter I was planning to send to an old love of mine before I tried with the N2 method. I love that line so much.

Dave actually ctb'd and his album he released with Purple Mountains before doing so is the real suicide letter, but I will always appreciate "The Wild Kindness"

The lyrics that follow on the opening line even remind me of my new intentions of SN and going to a hotel room to do it and the line of "I'm only perfect in an empty room" and more lyrics like "the year ends in the next room".. he even mentions the word "motel" in it and

A lot of suicidal undertones in that song that I relate to and I love it. It's based on my initial method and that song.

I love this explanation. I like music that feels relatable in a suicidal way.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I used a random word generator to throw out 3 words.

 

[GlassMoon]

I wanted something very different from my usual usernames. I like the moon. First I wanted something like "warmmoon" to express some emotions, but I was listening to a song named "Glass heart" a lot so I combined that. I think that's how it went, I don't remember the details. But the PFP is supposed to show the warmness in the glass.

 

[Michelstaedter]

The surname of a philosopher who wrote a rather interesting thesis on the problem of living unsatisfied. Ironically, he was against CTB, but he committed it as a kind of "metaphysical suicide." I find his notes interesting, including a writing called "dialogue of health" where he mentions this kind of struggle between trying to survive and life itself pushing us towards death as a kind of lost battle.
In a few words, I put it in honor of the fact that in his magnum opus, persuasion and rhetoric, the rhetorician will follow the ideals of humanity and therefore suffer the consequences of human shortcomings and the persuaded will follow his own path, will live each moment as if it were the last and for me, the crown will be CTB.

 

[Ixtab69]

IXTAB is the godess of "hanging" as well as "the hanged" in ancient Mayan mythology.She is rumored to lure people to hang themselves,guiding them on their journey and accompanying them in the realm of the deceased.Interestingly the rate of suicide by hanging is extremely high in those Mexican states where today's descendants of the Mayas are prevalent.The symbolism of the number 69 resides in the fact that both numbers have the same shape yet are slightly different-one representing partial hanging and the other one full suspension hanging.My avatar depicts the modern version of the divine IXTAB

 

[22yearsbroken]

ARLD..
Alcohol
Related
Liver
Disease

 

[mattoman]

My real name's first 3 letters are Mat, and in Discord I didnt want to use my real name, so I chose "matto" (meaning "carpet" in Finnish). If I recall correctly, "matto" wasn't available on SS so I added just "man" there.