The_big_b

The_big_b

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Jun 13, 2019
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I am struggling with picking a place where I will hang myself. Ideally, I'd like to do it at home, where I would be the most comfortable. I could try to pick a time frame where I would be undisturbed for a couple of hours, but there's no guarantees. The downside of doing it at home is whoever finds my body would definitely not like the sight of it. I'd rather the police first find my body, so as to cushion the blow on my relatives. Doing it outside is challenging, as it's summertime and there are many people out there to bust me in the act. I wouldn't want to have to resort to doing it in some abandoned building or some creepy forest, as I would rather do the deed someplace I find comforting. I cycled around my immediate area and a bit further out earlier today to scope out a potential spot, but the unfamiliar places felt very hostile, so I had to retreat. Traveling far to do it is expensive and I don't really want to start selling my stuff, because that might arouse suspicion. Is there even such a thing as the ideal place to commit suicide? Where do people usually do it?
 
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TheDevilsAngel

TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree
Apr 22, 2019
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I would prefer at home and if not at home somewhere extremely secluded or even a forest.

No matter where you decide as long as you find somewhere comfortable and quiet .
 
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deltahead

deltahead

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May 28, 2019
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somewhere far away, where i'm alone. some random person will find me eventually, maybe after a few days. that way my parents won't be as directly shocked and traumatized and i could die with a slightly clearer conscience. might even make the experience more pleasant, actually. i really hate the idea of dying in my house and hate that i'm feeling almost forced to do it.
 
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Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

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Feb 25, 2019
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Into the wild. I hope my body will return to ashes before I'm found.
 
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DoneWithThis

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Jul 20, 2019
125
Ideally? The beach. Full moon. Bonfire. A bit of background music from phone. A really nice whiskey. But just way too easy to get interrupted. Plus, depending on whether I go the SN way or hanging. A bit complicated to hang yourself at the beach.

More than likely I'll do it at home. Something strangely comforting about thar. Well, besides the whole relatives thing. If I go the SN way, it would be nice to pass out in my bed. Since I can't get benzos it does complicate things. Ideally, it'd be nice to get through the initial stage of SN, not vomiting, and just pass out. Instead of being awake and possibly screaming from pain. But maybe that's just a bit of paranoia from what some people have mentioned about SN.

Hotel room seems like a nice compromise. But obviously complicated for anything like full hanging.

So, yeah, more than likely at home, and I'll just have to find a convinient time that works for everyone else.
 
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EveryBodyDies85

EveryBodyDies85

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Jul 30, 2019
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On a secluded beach somewhere. I've never seen the ocean before. I'd imagine the sounds of the crashing waves would be comfortable as l start to fade away.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,813
I would prefer to do it in a place of seclusion and away from people, like in the woods, forest, mountains, etc. However, I know that sometimes it may not be possible depending on where I am at the time in my life. I'd rather not soil up someone else's place in which I am renting from and reduce their property value, so I do take that into consideration when choosing a location. I also don't wish to make a spectacle of my death and just wish to die as remotely as possible.
 
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Pupuce

Pupuce

Nobody exists on purpose. Come ctb
Apr 19, 2019
282
I don't really care as long as nothing gets in my way, and luckily i have the house for me 2 days, so I might give it a shot
 
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Dawn0071111

Dawn0071111

Hungry Ghost
Dec 9, 2018
570
Since I share a home, that is out. Either I rent a room to hang or I rent an SUV and put the generator on the backseat. That way I can drive to a nice location and peacefully cbt.
 
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Asta

Asta

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Jun 7, 2019
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On Mt. Everest, at the bottom of a crevice, never to be found. :happy:
 
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DoneWithThis

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Jul 20, 2019
125
Even though there's places that we might prefer. At the end of the day, seems like the majority of us, just want to be some place we wont be interrupted, some place that will have the least impact possible on other people. A place where we can sit in solitude, and say goodbye to ourselves. Not the world or the people in it. A place that we'll feel the least anxiety and preoccupation possible. A place where we can let go of everyone and everything. Complete absolution.
 
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BrokenMess

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Apr 3, 2019
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Pondering the same thing. I have two young children and want to protect them from finding me. But home is where I want to ctb at, but too afraid of them being the first ones to find me, and that thought alone is preventing me from ctb.
 
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FF777

FF777

Death is a natural part of life..
Jul 21, 2019
60
I am struggling with picking a place where I will hang myself.
Okay so this is what I'm thinking......

First, you can always research some different methods besides hanging and see if any of those methods might be more applicable in your particular situation.. (things like exit bag, or h2s (my favorite), or N, or NS, etc etc)

Second, why do you think forests are so creepy?.. It is kind of hard to hang your self out-doors in a unpopulated area that isn't a forest..

Also, you can use google maps or some thing to look around for good areas away from population instead of having to manually drive around looking for a place..

And if you are worried about summer time, you could maybe possibly wait until winter if you have the option of waiting that long..
 
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riverstyx

riverstyx

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May 31, 2019
218
My preferred place would be in nature, resting my back against a big, sun warmed rock, watching the sun go down (or up).
 
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BipolarExpat

BipolarExpat

Accomplished faker
May 30, 2019
698
Alaskan bush

Just can't leave the loved one's hangin like that.

"Sigh"

Of course with gps + satt phone....could send out coordinates, I suppose.
 
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DoneWithThis

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Jul 20, 2019
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Any place out in nature seems really nice to me. Instead of being in some artificial, man made structure. Something about being out in nature. Feeling that primal connection. I myself would have to go way more north to find a proper forest. Which obviously would complicate things, as far as letting someone know.

But I do think that being in nature would be a more soothing and peaceful way to go. Myy bare feet on the forest floor. Feeling the dirt between my toes. The scent of the trees and lush sorrounding vegetation. The sound of the river. The sound of some bird chirping to his buddies. Watching the first rays of the sunrise coming between the trees. feeling the warmth of the sun on my face. Being able to take a deep breath and smell nothing but nature. No trace of people or civilization. Almost like dissolving back into the earth.

here I couldn't do that unfortunately, especially with all the snakes and alligators, and spiders. It would probably just end up freaking me out more than comforting me really.
 
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Liveandlearnagain

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Aug 3, 2019
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With all due respect to anyone who's planning this, the reality is if you hang yourself at home, you are usually fucking things up for other people. I guess that's unavoidable with suicide.

But, ever read stories of those who have been in a house where a dead body has been? The smell doesn't disappear for years.

Our house has had a bad smell for months now ever since the weather warmed up. We finally realized the last owners husband passed away inside it. The law said they didn't have to tell us. Didn't notice anything in the winter when we moved in. The smell is just finally becoming ok and unnoticeable after burning incense three times a day for three months (rotating rooms). The person died over a year ago. They did all the proper ozone treatments and recovery renovations but you can still smell it to this day. It permeates the entire house and you can smell it as soon as you approach the house before you even enter. Again this is a year later.

Even if you live alone, you are messing things up for your neighbors, especially if they have kids. It fucks anyone up to realize what they are smelling is a person who is no longer there.

Unless you live in a house, in the middle of nowhere, and you have no friends or family to check on you. Then it only effects you.

But even in a normal neighborhood where the house next door is within 30 or even 50 feet, they are going to smell it, from inside their house believe it or not. It's that strong.

Outdoors is much better, unless you really can't make it there.

Not trying to judge or come off as arrogant, but the reality is most people don't realize how unbelievably, undeniably powerful a dead body smell is and how long it lasts even after they remove it and do renovations. It's not like in the movies and TV shows.

And yeah...it basically ruins a house. At least for a few years. Some people don't notice the smell, but a lot of people do. I guess someone will eventually buy the house or rent the apartment if you die in it, it happens, but it's really best to avoid it.

Spent the last five months wondering what room he died in, waking up and smelling that smell, coming home and smelling that smell, only to know what it is...it's way too personal for my nose and my mind. And damn, I'm just trying to eat at home or watch TV or sleep.

If I had to wake up every day and smell my dead loved one in my house, I'd be the next one in line for suicide. Hopefully you don't live with anyone you love if you choose this method indoors. They will not have a permanent hotel, new apartment, or new house the next day. They will at least have to sleep a few nights there, if not a few months, or years, or maybe they can't afford to leave.

Don't make them smell you, if you can avoid it. It's cruel and fucked up. Seriously. The suicide is one thing and all that comes with that, but don't make them smell you too, for the next year or more. No amount of opening the windows or any air purifier will work. It takes years. I've heard when it's fresh, for a few weeks or months you can taste it in your mouth and in your nose and it won't get out. How are they supposed to eat at home? Where are they supposed to go? Don't kick your family out of their house. Just my opinion. I know not everyone can go somewhere else besides the home. Not trying to shame anyone or make them feel worse. Just trying to be real.

Just something to think about.
 
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Mbound

Experienced
Apr 29, 2019
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With all due respect to anyone who's planning this, the reality is if you hang yourself at home, you are usually fucking things up for other people. I guess that's unavoidable with suicide.

But, ever read stories of those who have been in a house where a dead body has been? The smell doesn't disappear for years.

Our house has had a bad smell for months now ever since the weather warmed up. We finally realized the last owners husband passed away inside it. The law said they didn't have to tell us. Didn't notice anything in the winter when we moved in. The smell is just finally becoming ok and unnoticeable after burning incense three times a day for three months (rotating rooms). The person died over a year ago. They did all the proper ozone treatments and recovery renovations but you can still smell it to this day. It permeates the entire house and you can smell it as soon as you approach the house before you even enter. Again this is a year later.

Even if you live alone, you are messing things up for your neighbors, especially if they have kids. It fucks anyone up to realize what they are smelling is a person who is no longer there.

Unless you live in a house, in the middle of nowhere, and you have no friends or family to check on you. Then it only effects you.

But even in a normal neighborhood where the house next door is within 30 or even 50 feet, they are going to smell it, from inside their house believe it or not. It's that strong.

Outdoors is much better, unless you really can't make it there.

Not trying to judge or come off as arrogant, but the reality is most people don't realize how unbelievably, undeniably powerful a dead body smell is and how long it lasts even after they remove it and do renovations. It's not like in the movies and TV shows.

And yeah...it basically ruins a house. At least for a few years. Some people don't notice the smell, but a lot of people do. I guess someone will eventually buy the house or rent the apartment if you die in it, it happens, but it's really best to avoid it.

Spent the last five months wondering what room he died in, waking up and smelling that smell, coming home and smelling that smell, only to know what it is...it's way too personal for my nose and my mind. And damn, I'm just trying to eat at home or watch TV or sleep.

If I had to wake up every day and smell my dead loved one in my house, I'd be the next one in line for suicide. Hopefully you don't live with anyone you love if you choose this method indoors. They will not have a permanent hotel, new apartment, or new house the next day. They will at least have to sleep a few nights there, if not a few months, or years, or maybe they can't afford to leave.

Don't make them smell you, if you can avoid it. It's cruel and fucked up. Seriously. The suicide is one thing and all that comes with that, but don't make them smell you too, for the next year or more. No amount of opening the windows or any air purifier will work. It takes years. I've heard when it's fresh, for a few weeks or months you can taste it in your mouth and in your nose and it won't get out. How are they supposed to eat at home? Where are they supposed to go? Don't kick your family out of their house. Just my opinion. I know not everyone can go somewhere else besides the home. Not trying to shame anyone or make them feel worse. Just trying to be real.

Just something to think about.

This is wild. I believe you, because this would be a seriously weird thing for you to put so much effort into lying about, but I really had no idea. This is still the case even if the person is found and removed very promptly after they've died?
 
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shelledone

shelledone

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Aug 4, 2019
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I think home would be nice (I live alone except for my pet turtles who I'd have to rehome before doing the deed), but I do worry about how long it would take anyone to find the body. Of course, I could have a heart attack or choke, etc, and die naturally and still have the same "problem." My mother/brother would probably not notice for a couple weeks, at least. I've wondered about sending a delayed message but worry I would mess that up and reveal my plans. I guess I could leave a note for a delivery person (i.e., the Amazon one-day deliverer).. and leave a gift for their troubles.

Going to a hotel or something could be done as long as I don't attract attention (i.e., make noise). They probably have policies and procedures as long as I am good enough to leave a warning about a body. But, I would have to actually go through with it and not chicken out. Not like the wasted money would be a big deal, I guess.

What should I have as my last meal is another strange question I ask myself.
 
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ladolcemorte

ladolcemorte

Experienced
May 5, 2019
286
The Pacific Ocean. I am going to jump from a bridge over the Pacific Ocean. I want to look at a beautiful view before I die
 
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Alec

Alec

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Apr 22, 2019
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San Francisco, or LA under the Hollywood sign.
 
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Liveandlearnagain

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Aug 3, 2019
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This is wild. I believe you, because this would be a seriously weird thing for you to put so much effort into lying about, but I really had no idea. This is still the case even if the person is found and removed very promptly after they've died?


Yes. Yes a million times. Let me elaborate a little bit. The house situation is only a coincidence. I had already known about this before.

A few years back, I was feeling suicidal. Every night I went on Google and searched "found a dead body Reddit". I did this for a few weeks, a few hours every night. I read probably nearly a hundred stories in all.

Out of all of them, there are many shitty factors that come with dead bodies, but hands down the worst was the smell. I just finally got to experience it in real life. After reading all that Reddit, my roommate didn't want to believe it, but I knew what the smell was. Then we confirmed it. The law says they don't have to tell you, BUT, if you ASK, they do have to tell you. They can't lie. At least, that's my understanding, and they did tell us, albeit unwillingly. I confronted them head on and repeatedly asked. They hated that.

But let me give you an idea of the story I remember the most. It's not terribly gross or morbid but it made me understand how much this really is a big deal.

There was a guy who's friend's grandpa died. In the house where he died, there was a nice flatscreen TV. None of the family wanted the TV because they were too upset about the death, but they offered it to the friend. The friend took the TV. When they dropped the TV off, instantly, after getting it in the house, everyone was getting sick and gagging. The family had gotten used to it from working in grandpas house all day, claiming his belongings. The smell of the dead body had permeated the TV. Given, a TV isn't even porous like drywall or carpet or wood. It's plastic and circuit boards. It doesn't "soak up smells". But the smell of a corpse permeates anything and everything. Even metal air ducting, which has to be cleaned with special remediation.

Unless you get that body out within minutes, you are going to have smell problems.

Once a dead body has sat inside a house for a day....good luck. That smell is going to be there awhile.

It's actually, my understanding at least, an evolutionary thing. The smell of dead humans is extremely, extremely, extremely strong to us because it's evolutionarily important to stay away from dead bodies.

I've heard of firefighters and EMTs who get home after working with a body and the smell is still in their nose, they inhale soap up their nose in the shower till it burns but it's still there. Police officers who enter a home with a respirator and puke inside the respirator because they can smell it through.

I'm serious. You can ask anyone who's ever smelled a dead body. Read the stories on Reddit. I'm lucky I only smelled remnants, never the full thing. Probably the only thing worse for your family than killing yourself is making them smell you for the next two years.

Hotels have to do serious, serious remediation, and close off parts of the hotel after a death. Not to mention, scummy hotels just start to have a heavy smell like shit after awhile. Now you know partially why. But homes are somehow different from hotels too, structurally and otherwise.

Then again, some bodies probably smell really really bad, while a few get away with not being too terrible. People have died in walls and underneath beds without being discovered for awhile, with only smell complaints. But that's gotta be based on a million factors including, diet, body chemistry, genetics, weight, and a slew of other factors.

I'm sure there's more than a few who will think I'm exaggerating here. Please, do your own research. I have no reason to exaggerate. I only care to spread truth.
 
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Ladylethal

Ladylethal

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Jun 16, 2019
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I've never felt the need to be close to someone during any of my attempts....But this one....I'd very much like to be at home, cuddling my sleeping ex fiance while I drift off. If I did it while everyone's asleep nobody would be able to stop me anyway.
 
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vonvonwantpeace

vonvonwantpeace

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Jul 26, 2019
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I would prefer to do it in my room. :hug:
 
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freemefrompain

freemefrompain

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Aug 5, 2019
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Somewhere in nature, no one around,with flowers around and hopefully birds singing:)
 
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Azazel

Azazel

Silent
Jun 23, 2019
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Somewhere in nature, no one around,with flowers around and hopefully birds singing:)

Same. I would like to ctb surrounded by nature, calmly, in a place where nobody could easily find me. I want at least my last moments to be somehow beautiful
 
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freemefrompain

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Aug 5, 2019
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Same. I would like to ctb surrounded by nature, calmly, in a place where nobody could easily find me. I want at least my last moments to be somehow beautiful
Yeah:)
 
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