So, my house doesn't have any internal doors, no rafters or support beams, no sturdy hooks on the wall, tension rods in the closets, no vents overhead, no ceiling fan... No idea how to hang myself here but I'm running out of options and time. I'm going to be moved to a group care home soon where I'll be monitored 24/7 and basically not allowed to leave bed without a nurse.
I've been partially paralyzed for 18 years with severe nerve pain and even though I've recovered to the point where I can sometimes walk and stand, I have wanted to die since the day of my spinal cord injury.
This move is happening without my consent because my partner is leaving me after years of emotionally and financially abusing me, he's taking everything I have left and is doing this so I won't have independence or the ability to end my own suffering. I'm going to be stuck inside as a ward of the state for the rest of my natural life, like a prisoner, and I don't want to do this. I just want to die.
I need help because if I can't figure something out before then I'm not going to have a choice but to try to jump out of the car and crawl in front of another vehicle on the drive to the care home.
Please someone give me a good idea. I can't do SN, my mail is monitored. I tried to order it and it was thrown away. I can't wait. I've waited too long already. This is an emergency. I don't want to be imprisoned indefinitely in a nursing home. I need help. I just need to die.
I've been partially paralyzed for 18 years with severe nerve pain and even though I've recovered to the point where I can sometimes walk and stand, I have wanted to die since the day of my spinal cord injury.
This move is happening without my consent because my partner is leaving me after years of emotionally and financially abusing me, he's taking everything I have left and is doing this so I won't have independence or the ability to end my own suffering. I'm going to be stuck inside as a ward of the state for the rest of my natural life, like a prisoner, and I don't want to do this. I just want to die.
I need help because if I can't figure something out before then I'm not going to have a choice but to try to jump out of the car and crawl in front of another vehicle on the drive to the care home.
Please someone give me a good idea. I can't do SN, my mail is monitored. I tried to order it and it was thrown away. I can't wait. I've waited too long already. This is an emergency. I don't want to be imprisoned indefinitely in a nursing home. I need help. I just need to die.
