Discussion Where exactly do you plan to ctb?

[futur]

I am wondering, where is it possible to ctb to avoid the risk of interruption and to make the less as possible harm to other people

 

[Monstercat]

That's why I was thinking of driving a car into the mountains/woods where there is no-one. No interruptions and no chance of hurting others. Leave a note on the window - saying poison gas please don't open the door.

 

[Samuel]

I try not to think about it too much. At home in my bed.

 

[noonetoo]

My car, out in the middle of nowhere as well. Luckily it's newer, doors and windows well insulated. Would have to just tape up vents and play some music to o.d to. ❤

 

[First loss]

If I hang myself, at home. If I jump, then at the vantage point in my town of course.

 

[Struggling]

Home in bed ideally

 

[Circles]

I would like to do it at home but what bothers me if I do it in my room is my mother or sister finding me. If that fails then in the woods behind a park.

Here's my set up so far in my closet. And I may have to try a different knot instead of a hangmans noose since that's specifically for execution style drop hangings.
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[Monstercat]

My car, out in the middle of nowhere as well. Luckily it's newer, doors and windows well insulated. Would have to just tape up vents and play some music to o.d to. ❤

dont even need to do that .... pastic bag over your head and helium gas

 

[wanttodie]

• 
  at home
• in the hotelroom

 

[Monstercat]

I would like to do it at home but what bothers me if I do it in my room is my mother or sister finding me. If that fails then in the woods behind a park.

Here's my set up so far in my closet. And I may have to try a different knot instead of a hangmans noose since that's specifically for execution style drop hangings.
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i dont want to seem like an aresehole but you know you wont get your security deposit back, right? ;-) lol

i dont want to seem like an aresehole but you know you wont get your security deposit back, right? ;-) lol

i was just kidding, sorry macarbre humor
betterto find another place if your sister may find you there

 

[dandan]

Nice question, now that I found N, I have been thinking where to do it.

I live in a shared 2 bedroom apartment with a co-worker. He would be suprised as he doesn't even imagines this at all. But then they would have to travel my body back home. 600 miles away.

I can go back to my home city and ctb in a hotel room, that way it would be easier to deal with my dead body and have a funeral.

Or I could go to my moms place, but that would be pretty insulting from my part.

I would like to ctb outside of my dad's house so he can find me early in the morning... but its a dangerous zone in the city and surely cops or some gang members could rob me or police pick me up, fucking the plan.

or travel to another city and ctb in a hotel leaving a note.

fuck, this question is a really good question, I dont know where I would ctb....

first I have to be sure I get my 2nd bottle of N, I only got 1 :/

 

[Psilo]

Home or in the woods. I think the woods would be more appropriate. I have bad karma, I don't want to get my parents house haunted because of me.

 

[dandan]

Home or in the woods. I think the woods would be more appropriate. I have bad karma, I don't want to get my parents house haunted because of me.

In the wood, I dont know why but I also think I dont want to be found half decomposed, that not even my mama can recognize me... damn...

 

[Psilo]

In the wood, I dont know why but I also think I dont want to be found half decomposed, that not even my mama can recognize me... damn...

I think thats just a way to look at it. At least in the woods I would be in my natural habitat.

 

[dandan]

I think thats just a way to look at it. At least in the woods I would be in my natural habitat.

I think a lot about who would find me? How will they find me? and certainly I will go and choose N, falling asleep like a baby... in the woods I might get eaten and bitten by some bugs before ctb making it so uncomfortable... but then again... is just my way to look at it....


Hilton Hotel... air conditioner at 16°C keeping my body not so decomposed for 3 days... sounds more like it... falling asleep watching Andy Sandberg 99 police comedy show

saying it and doing it are two completely different things...... .

but I will get my 2nd N bottle.....

and I will have it ready in case I choose to go.... at home... or at a hotel... where i live... or back at my home town... we'll see

 

[Nitromask]

Car or hotel for me. I think I may go with car in the end.

I do like the sound of camping out in the woods but I'm not sure

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I'd like to blow my brains out in the graveyard.

That way, at least if my dumb relatives burn me up or donate me to science instead of using my money to bury me, at least I died where I wanted to rot forever.

 

[Monstercat]

In the wood, I dont know why but I also think I dont want to be found half decomposed, that not even my mama can recognize me... damn...

well i have gotten to the point where I don't really think about those parts too much (my body) frankly I would be thrilled if the fed it to a hungry bear at least i will have been of some use to even one little creature on earth. so I don't really care about my body but i do care about traumatizing innocent people finding me. Which mean a place far out of the woods. clear inctructions on the window 1. don't open the door bec of poison gas 2. call police. then by the time the police come you are dead. The gas takes 8 minutes max and they will not likely find you before that time and if they do they will be too scared to open the door and by the time the police arrive you have ctb already. sounds like a good plan to me.

I have told my significant other that I intend to use innert Gas and told him that if he finds me passed out to pease not try and save me before I will likely have severe brain damage... Just let me go. THis is not a method you can mess up with. it has to be done correctly the first time. So those are my inportant factors and if you are parked in an old parking lot somewhere deep in the woods shere cars don't go very often. they will start to miss you after a few days. When they go into your place you an leave onstructions to find the car. If you chicken out the notes will still be at your place safely without being found.

Finaly, I would very much like to have someone there with me to just be moral support but I know that would be asking too much of someone else. I defiinitely wouldm't mind taking a sedative or having just one drink but I am very worried this will allow me to make mistakes becaise of impaired judgement. I think I would definitely need something to take just the edge of the anxiety etc.

 

[noonetoo]

dont even need to do that .... pastic bag over your head and helium gas

My cousin already committed suicide that way. Plus, I read if too much gas, your lungs can explode and it's a really painful death. I think I'll go within my sleep. Plus my car is the only property that I have, that I could haunt with no guilt.

 

[Monstercat]

My cousin already committed suicide that way. Plus, I read if too much gas, your lungs can explode and it's a really painful death. I think I'll go within my sleep. Plus my car is the only property that I have, that I could haunt with no guilt.

The method i was talking about is inert helium or nitrogen gas with a gas tank that releases the gas into a plastic bag over your head. You lose consciencess in about 20 second and you are dead in about 8 - 10 max. no pain, no feeling of smothering etc. I am very chicken when it comes to pain, discomfort and long slow ways to go that will leave me disfigured if you somehow survive. So this was all taylored to my own system. I am sure you have through yours through carefully

 

[dandan]

I think I would definitely need something to take just the edge of the anxiety etc.

Definitely, havent you tested it or try it yet? I did, and yes, I got really anxious, like a rush....

The method i was talking about is inert helium or nitrogen gas with a gas tank that releases the gas into a plastic bag over your head. You lose consciencess in about 20 second and you are dead in about 8 - 10 max. no pain, no feeling of smothering etc. I am very chicken when it comes to pain, discomfort and long slow ways to go that will leave me disfigured if you somehow survive. So this was all taylored to my own system. I am sure you have through yours through carefully

Loose consciousness in 20 seconds and dead in 8-10minutes? no pain, no feeling? I have tried it... and tell you it is not as enjoyable as that... I thought it would be, when I finally had all my things I thought it would be easy... it aint... loosing consciousness in 20 seconds? I believe it would be needed to have medical assisantce for something like that to be truth...

good luck , hope you achieve it with success, I didnt... .I wouldnt try it again.... I will obtain N

 

[The Whale]

I'd love to CTB in another country, far away from family, from friends. I also don't want to be repatriated.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

That's a big problem for me too.
Judging by google maps, satellite view, everything is too damn open.
During my walks, I've checked a few locations to see their potential. Google shows them as some kind of forest, but it's just a huge, and I mean several (hundreds?) of square kilometers dedicated to just grass. Like, take the perfect American lawn and have it go over a 50x50km area. What's the damn point?!
There is, however, a potential location, although for safety reasons I won't disclose more information than it's a sort of man--made cave. I haven't explored it, didn't have the opportunity. I'm hoping it'll be deep enough to successfully hide me for at least 24 hours. "Falling asleep" by the sea seems risky. People might come to check up on me. Cops in particular.

 

[TAW122]

If I had to choose, I'd ideally choose to ctb in a car to contain the mess (my method would be a firearm, particularly a shotgun which means it will be super effective but very, very messy). I didn't want to do it in the home because it would devalue the property and also haunt whoever resides in them.

 

[wanttodie]

• at home
• or
• in the hotelroom